*This entire project is an attempt at completing things in full "womanhood". As in knowing that the invention of the car steering wheel did not have ovaries in mind. Some of this is dedicated to the one who knows that Wednesday is the perfect day to wear a sheer ball gown and some is dedicated to the one that takes me out to a party in it the Saturday before. The rest is dedicated to those who plan a day party for Wednesday and know I can wear the sheer ball gown to this also, even if we take pictures.This blog, in the form of a part of a virtual memoir, may have everything to do with the time me and my "sissy" and "cuzzo" made a "restaurant" and I made potato salad which was said to have potatoes that where too hard by people who do not understand what aldente means. This also may have everything to do with my "sissy" having a man she had a crush on show up at the "restaurant" which caused her to duck behind a counter when he walked in. Oh yeah, and I stapled my finger while putting together table signs. Being inspired by this interaction I may or may not be in the middle of my very own set up to cause the man I have a crush on in the same situation to walk in. Beyonce "stole" the shirt I would be wearing at the time, which can be seen on her "Dangerously In Love" album cover. I would have this on as I pretend to hide when he walks in. I might even be aiming to get his favorite recipe to surprise him with. #DoYouLikeSurprises. I might even be trying to plan a wedding to see if any signs of jealousy appear so I can just turn the shirt that Beyonce "stole" into a dress. I also risked my life gaining a "side hubby" during this process and I am going to give him everything "in the event of this other man's demise". In the spirit of creating my own "happening" based on what I witness happen to my "sissy" at the tender age of eleven or so their would be a portion of this "event" where I and others would write and send letters to all the girls that also have a crush on this man that say, "get the steppin". Music for the after hours spot may be found here: https://soundcloud.com/tasha-blackwell-27853915/sexy-caramel-chocolate-mix. I may or may not have made some playlist to describe what I would like to see happening at my "man crush" event. You also may find this playlist here https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLylYboAAvlK8pA5MvpaB6Eh9qu7B2ZX6E .
Someone wants to question me about lies I've told, like the obvious evidence of a shot up person isn't roaming wondering what happened to the people that should be there for him, slightly because I am present. I know it is the females who experience relationship status because they perform oral sex and do not realize they are not included. I have friends who cried tears about people suggesting that it would be okay for them to even mention or act like they would cause me harm. I guess the lie we are all telling is the one that comes from learning about non-violence because of Martin Luther King in school. I have never been so happy, sarcasm. Based on my international travels and new learning some of, most of, probably all of my squads tears are drying up and all those little confusions seem to be disappearing slowly but surely.We are responsive in a way that showcases education and a desire to better the community. Our hearts hurt when people get this misconstrued. However, many of us will have people tremble as we internally decipher what this new and groundbreaking information will do for us and our families. Information that has answered the prayers of many. We are most likely all bowed in prayers together and being thankful for all the people who went to remove themselves from our premises, remove our names from their lips and choose to go another way as we had been practicing non-violence. It is more than obvious that we are reaching new levels of our dreams and we will walk hand in hand with the new information, that if you don't know at this point, you might have to find out about the hard way. #TearDrops. I am going to go ahead and also suggest that where people in charge of films on television and so forth have bleeped out words and scenes people have noticed and bleeped out many things that they have learned to be inappropriate at some point. This is positive. Also, yes I can see when I am on the "slave" bus and someone may not know that is what they are on. There must be a person who cannot see that their comments cause no real disruption. I should share also that when people get shot up or someone thinks a lie is being told the person with the most violent response is typically the person of the same sex who wants to sleep with them or the really left out cornball who wants to get a big role in something. It is also probably obvious when joining a sorority that is in all honesty designed in an area where practically only white men are being educated and are aware of things like the KKK even when other people are unaware or acting as if it doesn't exist that participants should not seek understanding or companionship from organizations started on "all black campuses" for obvious reasons. Some people are including people in something where they cannot even walk near me to say something or are being protected by design and do not realize they should be quieter than they think. As in the structure is profound and has support of people who can see vividly who or what is aiming to harm certain people based on race. This potentially the creation of what someone saw their father once do. The challenges that come from others should and can be there but members would realize that what they are in has no other "people like them" in the area and they will be guest, need support or behave as thieves. There is a difference between those who should be protected from racism that they are unaware of and thieves who should be addressed. No, it does not hurt if people join the sorority with the obvious lesson of who or what will be in the same area and how to stay away and provide making companies big money when people are aiming to do fashion at blizzard time. The opposing parties also do not care that people are watching television shows and not believing exactly what is being said or happening. Some also need to realize that well-doers and successful people will not in their personal lives give up what they have earned to support someone who is by definition a lost cause. Can I mention I live also knowing people still would want to know what AIDS, Cancer or even a virus is and some people with television commercials are arguing for things they are directly cut off from. I am the person who knows when something is for an employee and when people should realize when people have enough supporters that they would never let something get that far. We do not care is the natural response and I do have galas to go to and people are traveling in the school day that they are not wanted in and still cannot tell. More than hilarious to anyone with a few dollars and no designated place to be for health care. Someone is attacking what I know through education, which is attacking systems who really will go back to a complete ignore of people. They are cutting themselves off from where I can get them off things like chemical relaxers for hair and heal them of any disease for free. Someone is putting themselves in danger because they watch too many movies and want to tell me something that is more than irrelevant. They should say "we are not smart, we did nothing, we project that onto others, we want to copy something from television, we don't read and we look silly". That really is the answer. I also am on a mission to see how many more people I can convince of the truth so they can stop setting me up to be someone they call the police on and wondering why I am organizing my pantie drawer and t-shirt collection. I am no dummy. I do have a few people I have made a slight eye contact with that I have added to my list of people I include on my real life journey. Not the one scheduled and televised, diluted and deluded. I am aware of what to address and to clear a path that includes me not continuing or being apart of the rest of someone else's. It's like protecting people's ears and stopping wars from starting because someone would want to say "he don't do nothing, he can't teach, or he can't preach" because they have never seen life without material items and moving vehicles or television channels. have never seen the fight to get into school or lead you for the rest of your days from a person that would never have to open their mouth to speak again, or see listeners ever or if at all. There are some people who should see that where I have led them, it is more than obvious who or what is going to cut them off and that is "my blessing" even when others do not know how to take it. Some have normalized the "game face" which is the face people do when they are being robbed and know it is dangerous to say something. There are men saying more than loudly, yeah we clowned that "b-word", as I advocate clearly for feminism for this exact reason. They are experiencing more and more women or b-words, not of the friendly use, taking their time and their task or education more seriously. This does mean for me less time to have a Magnum ice cream bar and more study as well. I am going to say, "say what?" in regards to "Black Lives Matter" pictures that showcase police. I have in more than one way and always created the proper avenue for justice. People who are aware really do think that all the way to that type of fight is what participants have signed up for. If you are reading this, by now you should understand why. I will most likely fail to understand how people became a racial category late in life when they had access to the learning. I will also ignore people who ask me to defer to them from a cell phone when I am under the current rule of someone organizing my participation in an event or something I am doing in the immediate moment. This makes perfect sense. Giving up what I am doing is like someone giving up access to food or the right to vote when they are in a clear colony or settlement. I guess someone is in an argument with themselves about where someone is supposed to be or my allergic reaction to a food source, a potential outbreak from a burn, a falling in love moment from being stared (ok, making eye contact) at or potentially all of the above. I am moon walking away from arguing because I do know when to use my "light skin privilege" and know when someone deserves it as a response and not a general dislike or discrimination. I continue my work in the area, so it is well seen that I am not wasting time, nor will I give up my reading time and interest in learning for someone else's ability to call me lazy in regards to something I had actually yet to think about in reality. I am running a marathon and also trying to see how to do something as amazing has a freestyle with all the letters of the alphabet, my way. Still. Someone who speaks or mentions me really cannot see when I am riding my bike as a "small woman" and hanging with grown ups who think it is funny to let me say liquor stinks and make faces. Just laugh. Like now. Let me teach this before the next paragraph, people have to stop thinking that technology has always been around or that people would even get a telegram about disaster, death or how many fatalities. There are people in all honesty, including me, who will learn who or what did not make it in situations that we may never know of, simply by design. I should probably stop acting like I need a "heads up" for something so I can be prepared to flirt and DJ at the same time. Some people also need to stop fighting "fun or safety" because of something they have seen televised or on film or for what they have made it mean. #Hide. I am going to provide an elevator speech so people can see what I am saying or doing and what I mean is, "yes I see you aiming to attack me and this thing I have or lessons someone gave me is to stop it and I do not know why you think I would stop using it". Probably because you would walk onto a slave ship. Not even the most caring school teacher would save a mass of people who walk into a furnace after twelve years of school. I am suffering from being a person who has won things since childhood and still wants to respond to the craziest of the craziest. I am still aiming to see how to battle a grown man who changed his poem last minute in a contest and then won. I'm like okay, for real, just lose my dude. This is about the power of poetry not a win or a prize. I would have chased him down the street, but something about me is trapped up like a "girl". I am also realizing the force that is going into making me addicted to chemical hair products when I have never been, and the shame some men from a particular community are feeling about where they have sat certain women out and placed women and girls who box them out worse than anyone can imagine. They then often watch women and girls excel who become depressed that they do not or cannot respond because of the situation they have put themselves in. me not being addicted, craving them after being natural or even having an issue with my afro or never having weave ever again in life is even disturbing people who would use this dilemma to be on the down low, sleep with men at work or just fail and blame it on "black and brown women". We are at the championships, I am always in the championships and wondering why no one is hungry while we are eating, only when they are starving and straining to put "us" in distress. There is also nothing worse than a "black woman" who a racist man really falls in love with. Like, undeniably no link to any perversion or hoe-ism as people would want. Only people who think there is no racism or are living like their is none in the structure of their life, even when they know think this. I can see generational congruence when others cannot. Someone needs to stop asking about "my money" because they cannot see I paid for something and would have been correct even if I did not use my own funds. There are people who need to learn to contribute how and when they can. The answer of being in "debt", the reason people suggest is the exact reason as to why to contribute when you have access to funds that are clearly for societal participation. Additionally, the reason some Latina women feel so boldy to speak is because the men have already removed themselves and "we" must not know, along with older men or others who have not so to speak. Some, most men do not want anyone to know what has happened to them because of it. Some "black and brown" women to have to learn to listen with their ears and schedule even when everything else suggest otherwise. I do not suffer from misplaced attention and every time someone makes an advance I do a double check to make sure they would love me if I was cripple and if my outfit of choice is a g-string, nah mean. A lot of people would like to deal with the societal ailment of people wanting to sign up or organize street fights or in the moment responses like a boxing match and then point out someone is cursing. Someone is aiming to battle me for a role and I am unaware of this. I also do not realize that women fight for men. I am just sashaying and seeing if someone would do a search and rescue, then I feel like that makes me the winner. It is not my fault there is a shift in "my booty rub agenda". I am not the person who supports a friend, when the best representative is required. I have to make an amendment and note that my push for initiative focused on women and girls come from my desire for health, wellness and a feminine atmosphere where some women and girls have taken up male dominated spheres. I, unlike people who did not read textbooks in school can see when someone is aiming to walk me on a "slave ship" that I do not have to be on or want me to touch a hot stove because they do not know what it is. There are people with no exposure to media, screen watching and reading, and how it makes people stare at people's interactions or want to keep up with things that they have no obvious relation to. As in, how is it even identifiable that two people are wanting to sit in each other's face and unable to finish what they are doing without getting ready to have to start a fight with what are "viewers", when they would not know or understand. No, these people are most likely not seeing anybody in the way people want to push others into an equation. I am also not responsive to attention seeking behaviors. Yes, I do want my bio to be the perfect update of what a "girlfriend" is doing. That is how I focus where others choose to respond to attention seeking that perfectly matches their needy spots. I am healing day after day or whatever that is. It is one of those situations where you want to say "dammmmnnnnn why you all in my face though" and just know better. I should share this, I am very loyal. However, I have had to learn that people who are my "favs" have gotten near me because they "sipped their moms soda" or done something while "sneaking". That is why some people want to call me sneaky, because what I am just doing is something they sneak to do. I would never be able to see if someone trapped me in a room, I would just notice if I ever ran out of resources or could never get somewhere ever again. There are people who make themselves apart of people's lives that they have not experienced. Some would say, no. I have never went to use something I have accomplished or something I have won to get over on people or get stuff. This is why people think I am being weird, yes I will stop by and take the trash out. I think someone is trying to say something to me about a movie, I don't care is the obvious answer. I'm not doing anything, umm cultish and people cannot see they are in public trying to do harassment. Many things do have a cult, that does not mean the entire thing or that you should just be in that part of something. There is a "cult of Jews" as a result of circumcision and they do not realize it, it is how they walk or where they tend to in society. They would never miss voting, especially in a local election. I am aiming to figure out what happened to a lady who screamed something out in a crowd, because I want to do something similar but I can see where it looks like someone would think it is a problem. I am wondering how come. I would also want to walk through and spray Lysol. As a good thing. Just grab some charcoal wipes, they are gender neutral in all honesty. Someone is saying "they" because they are too embarrassed to just admit they have no "life" or actual societal participation or that it is cool that I work on my own stuff and make use of what is provided in society. Someone just wants to have something to say to me, as if I would not be able to see the already obvious and teach the right way. I am interrupting people's incorrect. They are failing to see, especially if they swallowed something from doing something, that they are looking for particular food or a source. Me on the other hand I eat seafood and I know to hope and pray for someone that they know to use a "dime" size and not forget it's okay to cry if someone put their name on a particular bottle of something. Just shower with honey and coconut milk.
I guess I needed a speech. I have also learned that some irritations are the result of my own plans. I guess there is a slave version of something natural I do. It is obvious to me why not to do something, the answer is obviously no one, to me. I am busy. The situation is like a million people in line for a $100 item and me and the store owner knowing I am the only one who can afford it, or should have it. I have to laugh at the day people become articulate, which is what they made fun of me and others for. They suffer the lag time. Some people fight being better. This is the day some people will realize that having a "position" or "title" does not mean that people should listen to you when you are incorrect or do the incorrect thing. This also does not mean that you can override other people's task and description because you want to appear as the person in authority over someone who is performing their duties with excellence and accuracy. No, nothing in my life's accomplishment starts with conforming, code switching, getting treated illiterately or compliant to obvious discrimination or responding to and performing sexual acts. This is my feminist dilemma. The day those who have conformed and become compliant make private matters public ones and confuse the "normal" and choose what is actual abnormal and promiscuous behavior. There is that thing that people who are compliant or being treated illiterately, even when they are not do, they act as if all the people in a situation are not there. They often go all the way back into a life they do not have and mistake women in code switched or abandoned attire for "good girls". There are also people who become angered with me because I do not make the fact that people in "my community" are under performing make me sit around and not excel because of comparing myself to something that is drugged or illiterate and under performing. Some people are never getting the correct answer and are getting a paycheck. They fight those doing things correctly. As in being "awkward" for using education, when that is the more than obvious thing to do. Someone wants me to say "yes", where the answer is no. They want me to idolize their assaults and their confused story makes them point out things for what exactly. I know someone still lying about something, and I put them in the right camera angle. They want me included and from the proper view, all I know is the person who was supposed to be my friend told several lies and my intelligence takes a while and I am nice. They want to make sure I can see why elsewhere she is not included. She wants everyone to know the lie she told me. The answer is no, just like the no she gave. She would, she could and she will all for a chance to where what is properly designed for me. She can see that I have a strong no where she is aiming to get to, not even on my worst day. She hates to see who agrees and it is not my fault she watched movies and inserted herself into everyone's independent scene so the queen could alert them why to take these people seriously because of what they have been exposed to and learned from people like me on a school day. I am also not flirting around in my attire by the "water fountain" and getting treated like I am illiterate, even if I am not. I also will laugh when people who have claimed to be "thugs" and "hardcore" cannot get into arguments or deflect people's responses to proper political commentary because my peers make "other ethnicity" corny or wack while they are digesting enough of a textbook to show the fear in all the people who would have wanted to come and hear the information about voting. I laugh at the wipe out and no one knows why they think I would be hurt by any of it and prove the illiteracy levels and reasons some women and girls should back down because they only have one way that they ever got into the area. There is slight empathy for the "we" that never heard of the word slavery or have after not being able to identify what structure they may be performing in. Yes, all the people who sit through twelve years of education and fail to speak to elders with words, language and structural components may be watching the news report instead of showing what is being said about the person in "front" of them in public by the experts. When you aim to copy a movie from day to day, it can seem like you are taking someones role when you are not. You may be equating "furry hat" day to the fact that you cannot see an actual expensive item or behavior. Please continue to seat me further and further away from the sign I would not just be walking by. People like me should feel happy, when everyone in the "world" knows that I and others like me are the person someone left, but failed to realize left for what and to go where. No, they would not brag from slave ships and all the equivocates about people whose families would never let them board, even if they themselves had been captured. Especially when she can teach why the greater public will not let them get exposed for not knowing the word after twelve years of paid for education. The area of contention is where people have developed an attitude from television that not even parents can afford or would allow or have created a pathway to develop. Many are acting like kids who are "rough and tough" who have a family and community structure of people who will pick them up from a million miles away. They are in public arguing about age or size and not content and correct information. I would love to showcase the best to the best, but apparently some of the tackiest of things have occurred and intersections are causing my stress. This is for girls and women who have suffered from girls and women who have watched their story on film and keep thinking something is wrong with their eyes or what they are doing or seek to live like they have seen the same thing. For women and girls who have other women and girls who do not know how to leave or have found out how to identify a man they may have been dealing with's lifestyle and assuming the position of the woman or girl they are with from the identical lifestyle and experience. Also confusing the support that comes from the fact that this person would make proper arrangements that showcase the lifestyle and brand. People are failing to see that they are attacking at my "photo" with something that has happened in the past and privately. I guess they are handling disrespect. Pardon me while I reset the scene with kisses. Someone might want more than a shrug about gossip about a rig and a hoe. I guess there are stories also coming from the lips of people who do not realize they are slaves and often performing this duty on their own. They see women in their area and fail to see they are their competitors or a sign that other men have been weakened to the point of death or less than wages. I mean the day I can see people are looking for money that one would never request, as in obviously. The day I see a house boy because everyone is busy handling global affairs. Like why would I aim to get money that I did not earn or why would a free person be offended by the title earned by a slave, but I guess they don't exist. This is about pretty girls being under attack by women who have looked in mirrors to get ready for work and realized something they have yet to. Also, that they have not realized what pretty girls who have not been overworked respond like and that they are not the one that has launched that attack onto you. They see you search for the one who has, constantly. I also laugh knowing that them taking up this territory makes my funny and earned commentary seem offensive when they are cute jokes when "others" are not provided space in the area. I have pushed hard to find my "fly dance move" and yes the "my" and the metaphor in the entirety is specific. Part of it is the way I do not behave like a paid authority to handle a situation because I have viewed their behavior on television. Yes, I would like to get "caught" being cool or something at the bar by a particular someone. This is for women and girls who have feeling in their body even when others have different responses. I will say this for women, for girls, for men and for boys that there are women who are visibly in a masculine role and being aggressive even to men who would meet the definition of transgender or "drag". Some people are showing off and not realizing the feminine women are not competing with them or are not what the person responding to them is interested in. This is something like the story you would never know exist because you would never read it, unless looking for "sex scenes". Oh yeah, and this is also a mention about how Latino's who barely speak, then barely speak English, or barely look cute or fly to some people can see through learning, action and with or without words when something is the slave trade. By the time they realize they are not consciously participating they run into all the "trash" talk that people have been doing about them, as they watched them participate and assumed it was willingly. Who in the world wouldn't want to drive a hoopty instead of aimlessly seeking cars of dealership lots, that is the question. Also the problem that would arise by the people "running things" who have done a good job at supporting them in this participation. As in when it is obvious that someone mows the lawn for someone else and if they ever get invited inside it is because of the affection that has grown, the endearment that has become and that most people would see the obvious offer of having earned consummating the interaction. I say this while I am being laughed at for being offered "bread and butter" and the opportunity to teach mathematics in a way that causes people to seek the ratio to decide whose role is bigger. This happens when there would be no need to even say a word to someone, "about what" would be the response. This is diverse and that is my argument. I also do not mind people's smart comments about my personal tributes, which include the bravery of people who have their protest signs even when others ignore, target or dismiss without offering a listening ear or seeing what to be inspired by. There are people who want to be stalked by me, and end up stalking all the way into the plans me and my "girls" have that no one wants to be left out of and will start a fight about. As in birthday cakes, cupcakes and champagne all on me. This is me making sure to send the type of four page letter that the person I would want to send it to can read#MySeriouslyFunnyJoke. I'm like, is it okay if I grab the mic to say this? The thing is there are masculine men and women who cannot see that they are in the area, visibly, especially men and boys where they would "give head or something" when I would not. They fail to see how visible this is or how hard they fight and that men that would not "suck" for it would not be in the area. I also know to stay out of the way of the big strong man that might be the "down low" brotha who would never want to be found and would also identify me as someone a person would want to speak to about something, even if they have done something ridiculous. That is also someone keeping me safe, from when they cannot see that is the ultimate ending. #NeverHeardofIt. This is important for them to know so they will not aim to attack men and act as if certain women have not been protected because you cannot see that you are fighting them like another "female" and are being handled. Many men and boys would cry in public about it and the obviousness of it. I am making aiming to make my love notes that obvious. There are also women and girls fighting for the rightful place under the watchful eye of their "hood mommies" because of impostors who have done something that have made them become annoyed by the actual persons behavior because of what "they" in "acting" did next. Especially the irritating behavior of acting as if this person would even need to be dressed for you to speak, learn and adhere to them. This is knowing that communication involves yourself and the response of others never ever has to arrive. I am really am overcoming the irritation of people who think I should live daily like the hair and make-up that would be provided on the day I would host an award show. The rest is something like #BackSpaceDelete.
Let me start this by saying that some of us have learned to internalize the oppression others put on us or not notice the boundaries and restraints people have placed on us, even when we do them well, because of something or other that has been said in society. There are people who will complain that I am "to me". As in the same as pointing out something is "forest green". Most people have failed to see to just respond by saying that wee, you are navy blue and laugh if they cannot see that this is just a matter of preference, implicit bias or misunderstanding. As in what pain is the letter A supposed to feel when being called out by the letter Z for having a dash or looking like a upside down V with a slash. This is comical when put into this framework and proper context. Beautiful is beautiful whether it is pink, gold, orange or purple. As society develops some of these statements can also be seen as stating "you look like someone who came from a addicted mother", as a person walks across a stage for graduation. There are people celebrating their "big deals" in life and people pointing out their preference, ways of thinking, or personal choice as an insult. This may be a lack of exposure to diversity, access and education. This should be seen as such when it is. There is also something to be said about learning to be a attractive YOU and attract what is for you and not shape shifting to attract what is for someone else. This even means going ahead and being the person who pencils in their eye brows daily while their "favorite person" makes jokes about it in general and at the same time will direct you to Bare Minerals and the brush they have for a good finish on the eyebrow shape. This is intersectional, this is living, this is participation. Someone wants me to mention something as a person with "white" classmates and family about why I refrain from commenting when I can see the "back up" I am going to say to you will come from where I have developed in a space where people will not even allow, acknowledge or speak to you. Notice when you are in the "in zone" and not the friend zone because of this. #ToyBoxinOnATripOrSomething
outright and then send their "man" into work unsatisfied and depressed because he actually does have the job where he should have some impact from a matching lace pantie and bra set but the pack of eight he see's daily is making someone else get a promotion. This all seems crazy when you watch specialized television programming, not in full and without knowledge that someone is controlling what is being viewed, not what channel you watch. I will also mention that theme music in films, animation and stunts can cause people to make real life excitement seem like something "dead", "wack" or "corny". It is as if they cannot see that music is added to the "mundane" and then "action" spots. Many people want to say I live in the "blue", when they experience me providing data and results. Many times television is in the way. I know for a fact this might sound "weird" but I know for a fact from my studies that if I ask my friend to come with me to someone's showcase and they say no, this is because they have a song from Tinashe in their subconscious. I am also helping with something I call "The Movement to Press Unfollow". There are people who do not know how to interface with social media and the cyber world. They make calls and complaints that someone is speaking over them when they are no where near them or acknowledging them. Some people also have shown that they find it hard to understand headers and numbering order to a dialogue. Lastly, some people find my commentary hard to understand because it addresses situations at the root. I do not speak as if a "haircut" isn't a haircut and something that does not have to be done. I talk about follicles and dry scalp so to speak. I also know that in a world where hair cuts are normal and people are losing hair children who grow out of this condition will adapt and their hair length is an indicator of something. Many people make additions to who they are that will cause them to lack survival abilities. I also use tools to teach people who and what they respond to and why. Many people do not know celebrities have veneers, as in false teeth and have already lost theirs and had doctors fix this or that they have hair implants. So they find it "off" when a person is teaching them how to stop their teeth from decaying or thinking that visually this is what many of us would see and that we cut off people who are "healthy" because of how someone was kept attractive in the aftermath of something. I do advocate and put myself in the proper position so that when someone see's the result of my "beauty routine" they will see that they are hurting people's feelings because they are challenging them where I have healed my body all the way to having a complete natural clean and no gum disease, where they have false teeth and even some with false gum implants. It is hurtful to them and also annoying when they do want the information I share so they can increase their health and wellness with these remedies. I do Women Studies, and people often comment on my "scuba gear". As in the thing you wear as a scuba diver is a thing I have also while doing the work I do. Some questions people as are like, "well, can you type all that without a machine?" I point that out with my metaphors and people can see in advance how crazy and creepy it sounds. Especially if you know they had computer class with you. I should also mention the annoyance of commentary that comes, especially from older people that I do hear out who cannot see that they are not aware that I and others like me are working in a space where a 35 page research paper will be due and the directive they give is of someone who cannot read or just wants to cuddle and can see exactly what is about to happen.....Back to what I came here for. To tell everybody about how I made a decision today to purchase the larger container of Eco Style Coconut Gel. Mostly to help people like me who get irritated by people who think "we just got here", when it is them. I have hardly just arrived. I can hardly comprehend someone not understanding my behavior, action and speech not being an indication of me simply stating that I will not be taking directions from someone who makes decisions about hair length and fails to moisturize their scalp when this is imperative to do. I am a person who seeks to use the access from fights of my ancestors, mentors and those who came before me. I ride the bus like Rosa, I sew like Betsy and I practice minimalism, self-care and negotiating what is on my plate in a world of beings who have overdone things, overlooked people and failed to understand a serious response. I live for the nights when I can smile like I am in the above picture, posted before I started typing, from a night at Don Coqui with a sis of mine who is experiencing success in her life and her real one, like me. (Oh yeah, there will be edits, removals and additions all while this thing you call a website is visible.) The nights where we party and bump into our peers, loved ones, boo thangs and future boo thangs. The nights where "money ain't a thing" and you can vibe with people who live this "for real, for real". Memories like these fit into the ones of me knowing to watch performances that my sister's are on production crews for and support events that they create and have dreamed of all their life to bring to fruition. There is a thing I do when people ask me on the day where there is clearly no funds about what "we" should do and show signs of anger when they realize that everything me and "mine" do is on the day it is afforded without fear. I guess I can tell a secret about the time I decided I was going to be "just like a particular someone". Noticing and learning that there can be important people around other important people, even if the roles differ. I am not ashamed of my lived experience and I blow kisses in the direction of my choosing. I understand hard work, dedication and commitment. My celebrations are on the days I have survived the backlash of people who compare my "in the middle of something" to someone else's complete that they never actually fully read through. I love without mirrors, even when they are in the world I live in. Where many people gossip and want to hear something I have said about them, I am usually busy producing, growing and thriving with anyone worth making the jokes and comments to. I celebrate over everything. I live knowing that life occurrences can change your plans and cause you to reroute. This is resolution, something like kissing in public. If you choose to continue reading this, consider this one big verb! I should share that there are people who do not speak to "people", rather speak to their position. When they should "address" their position. I do have the ability to label people ignorant and choose to address situations they present in a way that will not get them further attacked or abused. I am silent like a person who has food, looking at people behave like they are in a famine because they did not eat. "Oh, you had something to say about me or said something off" and I will always know that this has something to do with me going to Disney World and looking better because of what you have seen on television. No, no one is going to stop people from misusing funds to buy clothes when their is an employment crisis. I can see a "crack head" when some people may not realize that is who or what is speaking. I am not belittling them or looking to get out of the environment so to speak. Yes, I do know their are kids on other narcotics in their parents big houses and basements. People cannot see when their work schedule is obvious and they are not being addressed because "we" are in an international conversation and me and my blog is obvious as a response to most questions one would have. As a person who has studied the media, I would suggest Jungle Fever and Dave Chappelle as a way for people to visualize what they are doing, what others are seeing and what is being addressed. I am often saddened, when I really have to keep up my correspondence with people becoming computer literate worldwide and see people who act as if "those communities are so poor" still not know what or why someone is using a computer for. I would suggest they learn online, but they are failing to comprehend. I would also suggest that they attend community opportunities or programs but they do not have transportation money because Nike has it, for the music video that they will never appear in but constantly appear dressed for. I do not have the "mental illness" of thinking that the people who produced me and those in the area weren't, wouldn't or still might be in the middle of robberies, killings, rapes, wars, arguments and that I am not also subject to the actions they would actualize on any person. I do not think that "they" know me. I say thank you and understand the relationship when I am "safe", given a resource and no one says anything funny to me about getting my nails done. Nothing worse than knowing that their are people who in primal instinct have gotten "customers" for sexual exchanges or drugs and will not stop because of racism. It is also irritating when the person who does this knows that I am a "no" about something and that I should be to busy to care about what someone else is thinking or saying and that my philanthropist tears are the moment some people I would support realize something and this person knows I really am not giving up my glitter. Mostly because they cannot see that my glitter is seriously who I am and what I wear, they just happen to see me in a garden and their is dirt. Yes, I wear Nikes to rake. No, I do not wear my sparkle heels that you are going to die if you touch, while I am doing street cleaning and supporting the community. This is me, and then their is the "relaxer" that comes the next day that I have no idea about. However, the one that came from the hairdresser after something really bad happened. So I know to just sit their and look expensive and notice that I am using honey in my afro that I brought back to life ferociously. Someone with a cold would like honey for their tea and I'm grabbing them like "Black Friday". My fro has congestion #Jokes. I am also not offended by "black women" who cannot see when they deny opportunities to young women from their community where they "no" would be for them at "Black". I am not confused in this area or about who is in charge. They fail to see what they are then unable to do and why those doing it look out of place. I really will not address arguments that come from "social workers" who grew up without showers. To be sarcastic some of what people think they are supporting them on is really a "why do you get to do this" and attempt to take it away. The thing missing in my life, is the thing that says you cannot be here because of your skin color or menstruation. I should mention that I also grew up having B2K concert tickets and posters. Many people are watching their "parents" or "moms boyfriends" cable and identifying with the experience of being in the loop. This causes confrontation. They cannot see that they do not even qualify as having visual access or doing anything. They copy the experience and are actually irritating caregivers and community members that would otherwise support them. There really is a question of "where are you going". I personally make jokes when I learn about people like Hypatia to turn it into my own metaphorical scenario to see who loves me so much "they would chase me down the street" and would brag as to not lose my womanly and natural touch. I will insert what seems "random" here when it is not. Access and exposure to group participation cause some people to think that a particular behavior that almost appears as herding should occur when it should not. There are people who want to see me act out about something due to a certain profile and documentation. #ImPicky. I should document here about a time that I was introduced to "net neutrality", when access to all content gets blocked or favoring takes place by legislation and cooperation before ever getting to reach the public. I mean most people in my face cannot see that "they" actually do not know they are an immigrant, affirmative action, left out, sexually abused and more. They have seen something. I discuss "net neutrality" this way after I already know that even with there being over 3,000 cable television channels available for viewing only about seven companies own them all and sit on each other's "boards" for partnership and collaboration. This makes me understand that people who watch television often are disturbed by my behavior when I know that there is development occurring in countries like Africa, business, jobs and economies but based on what is on television some may think there are only jungles and naked people. Some people may also destroy their communities, upbringing and things they are given because the views on television from seven or so corporations may showcase famine, conquering, people looking for land to take over and build a office where people are actually thriving but this cannot be viewed correctly. People who would protest or not support often give more support than they can believe. They take up space like "wilderness and jungle" where they have glass plates and refrigerators. Hearing that people also want to do this to the internet makes me understand that someone wants to shift and shape what people know and are exposed to. I will be sarcastic and use the metaphor of someone not wanting people to hear about the sale at Victoria Secret when they can afford it full price, make them think they cannot, then have them buy underwear from companies that abandon their countries and communities. I am here to tell people to be careful when you do not see that "cell phones" are new to executives and teachers who are excited to use them and look like "fort knox" or something. When you reach to them for advocacy when the walkie talkie they can use is fun so you associate the fun they are having with new tools with attention being given to you and cannot see they are in the phase where this is a "new lego set" with all the "nuclear war buttons" included and you cannot see how serious they are because you see a clock in your classroom and that it is lunch time. Most girls and women would run and hide from the "excitement" about condemns. Especially coming from "boys" who learned about sex in a classroom and learn late in life the experience of men and women who just happened to "do whatever that just was." These people also laugh knowing my peers experience what they know is "cool", "complete", "hard as all hell" to do as something an old or elderly person would be doing. Their thoughts about this are right around the time people stepped out of that final thing to do that used to be give a speech, write, recite something, eat out, get a job, buy some dish soap, wash your body on your own or something because they got a new tool that helped them get to the moon, make people think they went to the moon, or a bunch of people are checking to see if someone really went to the moon or nah. This makes people miss out on their friend buying them Cheesecake Factory and then get blocked when grown men in suits that you can't see are needing support from playing Frisbee at the White House want the Dorito's even if you are starving. They might still be trying to see if "water gate" has something to do with the sprinklers but that one episode of "West Wing" you watched or just knowing there is a President makes you think otherwise. Yes, I did run a six minute and thirty one second mile and me and all my other classmates who did as well that are hiding needing asthma pumps will be sticking to our story. Television watching also causes some women to not realize that they need to be able to "turn someone on" before aiming to do what the other person really might now know what they are trying because they got if off a screen and not the way intimate contact photosynthesizes. Some people are also still thinking "turn on" has something to do with a button. In a world without mirrors and where words a present there really are people telling other people that they "have a hole in their head" and are referring to a mouth that they cannot see that they also have. I do have enough skill and ability to teach and help people and also reroute them. Let's say you have a really good "act" but you did not realize you developed this from watching and copying so to speak and did not realize the people around you think you look silly and even sillier competing or commenting on the person who can help you I can show you where to implement the skill you have developed in the way others will understand. Many still do not even know why most people are talking on the phone. I look "weird" to people who do not know how or would not be able to "do something" unless all it requires is a room reservation form. Looking for a venue, understanding economics and everything that goes into something can look incorrect. One of my favorite things I ever learned about was called Post Secret, they turned the project into a website (www.postsecret.com). I love, love, loved it. I definitely want to create a similar project or utilize some of its purpose and structure in something I eventually do. There is nothing wrong with me other than I would like to be typing while sitting at someone's counter top or bed. I am the person that does youth work that will ask "for what". Have you ever seen people want to complain about someone because they cannot see the person has the skill of the people they call "in charge". As in she does xyz and I cannot understand it is the actual statement. This is the challenge for teachers who have learners who surpass them and student populations who resist. I will still say it is exposure to having seen a television show that shows what "girlfriend" or "class pres" get and makes people aim to fight into that space instead of be a part of it properly. Also "kid shows" have boy and girls even knowing to identify each other as boys or girls when typically their is no speaking. People who grew up without television do not know why dating is happening, how, and will also take your love interest from you and you may not think this or see that you are identifying them in "sleep". Shows like teletubbies help provide entertainment and take away the acknowledgement of "separation of flesh" or identifying them as a personality with talent or skill. Some women are girls are even being spoken to because someone can see that "it can speak, dance, sing" or something at "some point". Otherwise sheer attraction is what would lead people to each other. Their is actually a "violent" explosive response of people aiming to biologically get back in place. The "kids show" also may make people speak the way they can identify girl, they may speak and identify "career" and be doing this when they are clearly being given a no or discriminated against. The work I do looked just like a "woman" who is educated and does not aim to step into the male sphere to do what "it" is doing. I often have to resist the challenge of responding to people's petty fights because it may seem like I am out of jurisdiction or not protected. When in all actuality I have material items, but who I am without all of this or without perfection is protected. Most people would work along side me if they could see the message that is being sent. I do understand deferment. I just know that some women cannot see when they have experienced a item or "success" from when they have stepped out of bounds or been an infidel to something. Who or what do you think writes things and shares stories? There are some people who want to "attack" at me or something I am doing and aim to tell an authority who can see what I am doing and validates this. This same authority may not realize that you cannot realize that what the two of us will be looking at is someone that was just "beat with a night stick" or something by the group who is helping to protect this person and others in general. This is not meant to be rude, it is to help clear up some blind spots from the party scene in the movie you watched that really makes you not volunteer or find the local NAACP or community program. And yes, you do know that this organization exist should be the answer and you should read the bulletin board at the library. If you did that as the basic level requirement you would not be starting fights or would actually support what you would view as super positive when you can put everything into the proper focus. I do, do my work like from now until seven generations and so forth. I also do have to get corrected in life and the language in that psychic development might require language that says "bitch with money" because having money and going to the store on my own might make me kick people out of my family or friend group or want to fight about things that are otherwise funny. The language is "acting like a bitch with money" and clearly exposure to a professional seen on my own makes this language off putting in certain instances were I should be trying to steal a Heineken to bring to somebody and laugh about it. These are all apart of my "Flyy Girl" story and yes Omar Tyree is what put words to the story I already live and I am happy to have read it and have the ability to. Money and reading would almost make me act like I do not know someone who is making me their favorite something. It is violent and a crisis to not allow me to share and speak in the way I do. It is the annoying thing of the type of laptop I have, making the person who works at the "around the way fix my computer spot" call things in that make me have to experience the life of having to go straight to the manufacturer because they can't see me without the $3 my dad gave me. I had a slim jim and a juice that keeps saving people's lives. Then I go on ahead and start seeing how to help the governments current initiative in deportation since that's how it "gotta go". Someone thinks the person they see using a script or professional communication on television does not use curse words when they are not in that situation, when they most likely do. What I am doing is showing someone what I'm doing, when they are doing what they are doing and then some. So when a shift happens I can see when what I am doing can seem small to some, big to others or confrontational because of who it puts people into a competition with. If someone can be competitive with someone or something I am affiliated it puts a direct confrontation in the area and that might mean something that harms and attacks at me because of what my influence also will do for the person and how it will increase them, because I do that, when you do what you do. This is called reader friendly. I'm in position at "group" time to know to say "no chic I have never seen you a day in my life" and trip someone when the baller drive by because I saw something while I was a kid with some money looking cute rolling around. #LaughOutLoud. Someone is attempting to make my writing come across like a music video and then I probably won't gain weight and stress from people aiming to get to make one and "rush" a person they see in a picture or in passing to the location. I have a couple photographers wanting to do photo shoots and I'm like ummmm, mmmhmmm, what should this look like. My behavior is indicative of early knowledge of weapons and the impact. I am never at a standstill, I do not aim to override my point of awareness. Someone wants to know what a "roar from heaven" means when I make this statement and I imagine a person "grabbing me up like I'm a kid or something" and telling me "you could have died". I know in this moment I'm missing a bandanna, a belly shirt and some gold jewelry so my death doesn't come off as good as I would have liked. I'm in a world of car rides, books, clothes for different occasions that make everything seem a hop, jump and skip away. I have been taught by many, and understand how to roll out the red carpet and make sure I add shimmer to my cheeks, the ones on my face because I have been told in a world without mirrors how cute they are. I am always headed in the same direction, I always show appreciation in a way that is acknowledges what I can see being contributed regardless of the things others have to say. I am also doing a funny thing to make sure someone can see that instead of going to be the international double dutch team champion of the world, I came all this way to present to a particular someone my two lips. There are people seeking to place black solidarity where people do not know it exist or do not care until after they have already attacked. Something someone did is interrupting biology and natural grouping. This is making girls who would never get thongs and glitter see them appear and think they are abnormal. No grown man with kids and employment or education would want to share publicly that they have never seen a thong in person on a woman. There are also some people who cannot see why they need to continue what they are doing. It is like picking up the cell phone behavior of someone on a family plan and doing something that would make you lose YOUR cell phone because they do not respond to that as a consequence and the double bind of convincing the family plan people to notice why they may even waste a millisecond and what they can earn if they do not miss this spot. This scenario does have metaphors and equivalents. This is me saying "can I kiss you?" and not being vague.
Imagine growing up in a world where people forfeit the ability to live and tell their truth. People having access to the ability to watch other people’s lives on films and always preparing for a snow storm when they live in a desert and not seeing how silly they look or why the person prepared for the sand storm is the best. My childhood starts with memories of being loved in high places and also interacting with what people call “cousins” and other “children” who have no sense of a larger reality. The days where people want explanations about why as a toddler I have been sleeping over a relative’s house where other children have seemingly left me out of something prior to my knowledge. The days that I realize that there are stories about me peeing on the bed when I was four being used to argue with why I have won, earned or been described as the best at something. This occurs to people who tend to realize that their argument against this is that they woke up in time to pee on the floor and do not understand what it is like to have diapers, pull ups and people who change you in the middle of the night. Also living in the midst of people discovering that they compare what they are doing during “playtime” while I sleep, to what I do in organized activities, competitions or because I am a loved one who has all the princess materials and decides to be a philanthropist or something with them even before I have words. Sometimes it is hard to see what I am sharing or that I am sharing in the first place. The behavior of others in this scenario is similar to someone who would have an art teacher in grade school and then go home and pretend to be Picasso when all they do is scribble or never have supplies or use them incorrectly. More importantly fail to realize that no one in the area is worried about art, or that they have not shown their work to the correct person or for the correct reason. I think in terms of "climate change" and understand the concept and look at people who argue about this but wear a coat in the winter or understand that for some reason it did not snow as much this winter and maybe if you watch the stock market you will know it also did not crash, and see the correlation. #ThatChimeneyLookingThingWithTheSmokeComingOutOfIt. I am also a person who comprehends that "we" have clothes on because of the weather and migration. As in when did "naked" become problematic, but at the same time knowing when and why naked is and can be problematic. I once participated in a Body Image project that a very close friend of mine worked on in graduate school. As a Women's Studies grad student it would make sense that I would not find it inappropriate to appear without clothing in a photo for a project such as this one. In this time frame acting as if a growing feminist scholar would not or should not do this, is like stating that women who have gained rights that afford them to leave the house should not have multiple pairs of shoes or shoes at all. I have also learned that I am "poor" to some people who think my cell phone is shut off when I actually have a new number. The amount of people who even make a comment about my contact number showcase why I would have the desire to change it or not have one at all. I have also come to understand that their are people who have made a decision about who we are or what they want from "us" regardless of what we can understand. Especially if you are very visible or have a talent or skill seen by others in conjunction to being someone viewed as attractive. There are people who have made up in their mind that they would want to "sleep" with me even if they are in a relationship or if I was to be in one. No, I do not make some "girl on a phone" mean that a person in the immediate area is not qualified to scratch my back or something. There are many itchy people for no reason. I also have eaten a lot of clams. Let me mention that I have come to develop a theory of "toothbrushes playing sword fights". Meaning in a society where many people do not realize that toothpaste and toothbrushes are a modern day invention they place "family" toothbrushes all together in a holder. They do not realize the shared germs and bacteria and what they cause. Even placing wet toothbrushes into a holder and not cleaning the toothbrush holder out daily is very problematic. I have had to fight hard to separate myself from people who normalize the experience or occurrence of "toothbrushes sword fighting". Some people really are sharing way to many germs and when this goes away they may fight to get it back because of an experience or interaction it brings to them. Also knowing and understanding that there is something called "vaginosis" is a thing and what you use to wash your body and bathroom is important. Vinegar can be used for both. People are normalizing the experience of living in households together from mediated scenes or copying others relationships without seeing their self-care, hygiene, or routine. I have learned in my life that I have to spend more time using natural cleaners before I use the bathroom because the experience I have from chemical clean or other people having been in the area cause me to not take all the time I need to make sure my afro is moisturized perfectly. This statement is not an insult to people who are naturally using a household. It is a reminder to me that I grow in a economic and systematic society and can afford a "face mask" to clean the bathroom and not just form a complaint, compensatory strategy or bad habit. There is also a funny experience I have of people pointing out things and not realizing that they point this out to who or what they call and "administrator" or authority that they do not realize that I have a relationship with that then develops further into the one where they are the person that can walk in my room borrow my shirt, jewelry, speaking gig, new panties that better have tags on them and make sure that all I need is "lip chap" and hair grease. I will not aim to control other people in a way that blocks the wife of someone whom I'm all "lovey dovey with" from becoming a person who can walk out the door in my shoes because my "peer" group are somewhere being professional in a state of dress up or awkward turtle. I am the person who responds to people who really are so conditioned to stare at a complete text with images, that I know to develop a length that supports an overall need and include images that can hold their attention even if they fail to read or it "becomes to much" like usual. I have the blank stare of a person who knows that the government can tell if I have a registered organization that I am appropriate to run and organize, the same way a school teacher knows that Z is the last letter of the alphabet. As a person who understands access and women gaining rights I have learned to pay attention to when I am in an environment where men would "rape" and kill other men for no reason or in matters of business. Some women get into accidental relationships in this territory or men cannot see they are being exposed as a person who would do that because they fail to see how successful the woman in the space is being and that she will not be exiting because she is being courted at levels of "can now just go sit in the house" famous, fancy, broke or corny. I should also mention that I have enough knowledge to listen to people I teach, inform, inspire and in particular scenarios to know that their directives are similar and increased by mine. No, I do not override my "mini me's" when they can signal signs of danger, or know that I am going to be irritated by something going on that they do not want me to witness. I have come to realize that has a person that has lead others people's challenges of what I am doing cause me to "fall off" or their to be a "distortion". I lead like a person who knows when it is time for "education", to me it is always integration day. Most people would agree and put khakis, lip gloss, fur coats and all of what represents the reality of the life and experience at the forefront. Some do not see what being lax means, where they are being lax and how on Nicki Minaj sweatsuit day they feel that I am being "off" or unprofessional because people with "sneaker boxes" are living and dressing and learning at the same time as people who are starting "poor" from the root and seeking employment that way. They fail to see the "we" that could be golfing, shopping or at the playground. I have learned to share this and how it benefits the masses to do things this way. Yes, when you show up proper like today is integration day someone can see who can miss class and go to "that thing they call a freestyle battle" and still graduate. This makes very perfect sense. I live like "why on today do "we" do this" and I can see how it causes elders in the community (this does include women) to cripple or left without support of younger people they have provided for. They then see these people attacking at what people who are starving have fought for or essentially "living on the wrong day" so to speak. I really have to get kept safe from people who want to know why the girl from ninth grade with the grey valor sweat suit, grey valor converse, grey fuzzy Kangol hat with a brim and Polaroid instant camera that can only take ten pictures from the expensive film, is "all of a sudden so fancy". That is fancy and expensive. That lack of awareness can cause people to see how it may be hard to participate in settings where improper labels are placed. This is stereotyping. I should share that there are adults and authorities I almost accidentally disrespect out of irritation of other people who have thought "they had spoke to them" because they were in attendance and formed misplaced identities. As in yes, I should continue to work on my projects even if people with work place transport, access or no knowledge of their elimination keep making comments that validate that they do not sit well through a lesson with an active learner. I am smart where I have natural responses like "what is technology" or having the feeling of radiation and leaving an experience that others stay in. Some people are non-responsive and call it normal. I do what I do. That is called engagement.
I am a person who has smart remarks in the middle of people commenting about what I am doing as a person who recognizes anger, homicidal tendencies, robberies, crimes and also all the amazing things to do and accomplish while people around me are engaging in those things all around me. This does include messages about war in live news reports in real time and from textbooks. I acknowledge what protects me on an individual level. It is the dilemma of knowing people who will give you ice cream might do something mean to others. I learned as an adult that the problem is when a serious directive is given and not followed, kind of like wearing a bullet proof vest always in a particular territory. There is a crisis when people are born into a situation that is already happening beyond their control. I am the person who tells “abandoned” children or ones with working mothers “good job on their spelling test” while others wonder or make comments about when they will get another haircut in the middle of the school day. I have the dilemma of being organized and right while being argued with or looked over by people who live in a store furniture display that they have yet to pay off (ssshhh this is not about you if you were born before voting rights). It is me being the type of person who puts these designs together who is constantly being argued with in the middle of this behavior by people who take the “display” with little regard to how it was put together or for what purpose. I live for the internal laughter of people saying “I saw her lying on a pattern bedspread” the day you see her purchase a pink one on her own and realize what you saw her on is the one that happens to be on the couch. I am the person who knows that there is nothing you can do to take away from the person who arrives at a location “just like everyone else”, let’s say the library for instance and chooses to read, write a paper or look up a current event and happen to be able to have a conversation somewhere in public because of this. Others who went on the same trip may want to bring that fact up and not realize that this is not the time for people who chose to run around and be silly. Some people get mad about choices, interest and what these things directly correlate to. I will also never answer to people who do not realize that they allowed someone to take over or chose them because they fail to see that there are things such as dentures, hair weave or wigs. There are people receiving a lot of attention and taking up responsibility that they need support from me for, and others like me, because they do not know that is the reason or how to explain that they know they are doing something and not being vague about it. The behavior might look like something else because of the “store display” that is being seen and not the person directly. I do not apologize for what seems like blank stares at people who make their identity “businessman” when they are in an area where racism would make someone feed a homeless person with no skill before even hiring them for a job they are good at. The same goes for when people band together by culture and decline help and support that people are giving them when they are an “immigrant” in the particular situation. I am always in the middle of turf wars or scenes from “gangsta movies” in my real life experiences. Sometimes people look for commercial breaks or the end of a movie where a real life occurrence is happening without these visual road maps until created by the person you see living through it or the person seeing this after or in the middle of what they are also experiencing. I cannot help it if I am considered being from a group of “crazy people with kids”. I make a joke about how my life is actually good but having had access to my own money as a “girl” makes me not notice when to give up something for a “million dollar deal” that cost me a quarter that I want to spend on chips when there is food in the house. I also know to keep it secret that I am trying to get my cell phone number to Lebron James, while I am somewhere with my own little bit of spending money and I know he might need a pack of socks in this small increment that I fit into. I have come into situations where people who have done things for money wish they could take it back. I have come to realize that people who have been alive longer than me can see my "silent" insults that are well meaning or actually mean when I do not notice. I have learned to be adjusted and corrected without words and realized people love me enough to save me from situations I cannot see will cause people to start fights or even aim to kill me or something. Yes, I guess the situation of me trying to "check" somebody that has been here since "before Christ" about my man she might be trying to get without paying attention to who might be paying attention can be slightly problematic. I'm on the look out like a person who can feel and signal a hurricane and express this without words. I'm whispering "let me know what you can see from the top and I'm a roll around the back." People are drawing attention to things that they thought someone would deem as inappropriate to compete with me, not realizing it is making me visibly attractive or something to more and more people who are going to protect the borders as I attempt to get mugs and bottles across them. #GetOverHere. I am refusing to do a "church clap". This is funny.
There are kids living in their families house like “foster care” and trash talking people who would actually get awarded for amazing community service. I often feel a sense of abandonment when I am not a part of this structure or when I am around people who have made an alternate reality of this exact situation when they are in it. I have learned that it is okay to feel left out when what I can see is coming from people who are being corrected or reprimanded and making changes that I happen to witness. I should know not to feel bad when I see people bragging or boasting about material items they have that come from not making a car payment in months and going shopping. I have also learned to not feel bad when these people disappear and point out that I still have a name brand purse and underwear or perfume. All these things are a part of my identity that doesn’t include the missing car payments or them disappearing because of those types of things being dealt with. I probably would mention multiple times about living through a “lynching” if I could not see the danger, dismissal or consequence of people thinking this is not true or things like this do not happen. I can also see when people make this someone else’s problem even if it occurs outside their doorstep so to speak. I have lived through moments of people causing distress in an area I am not in due to technology. One that makes them think I am not on time because of what they “think” when I am actually on the way and closer than one will think and upon arrival have to deal with a “consequence” being in the atmosphere that I will actually never face. I also know the pain of rerouting and redoing things in the moment based on updates and knowing that it is okay to be emotional but not trivialize what needs to occur. I once learned in a very intimate space about how Martin Luther King Jr. fought Coretta and this happened during a time when I am witnessing Chris Brown be torn apart for a fight with Rihanna. I can see, learn and understand and make the direct correlations in my time, my day and my generation. I do not minimize people, experiences or the fact that a March on Washington is the result of someone running through an “underground railroad”. My tears in these situations come from knowing for a fact that whatever stories exist about me come from aiming to be non-violent and creating harmony among races. Had I ever learned about non-violence or heard about the fight between Martin and Coretta earlier in my life, I know there would be silence and a big difference about what people discuss or the response and reaction they would receive.
Can I tell a funny joke about how I know when and where I would be claustrophobic so I handle myself in a way that seeks to completely avoid this in the first place. I once was instructing college courses and there was an assignment to do a six word memoir in the area I decided to create my own. “Box braids with golden cuff beads”. That would sum up a lot for people who would read my memoir. I have been called “Albert Einstein” in the middle of speaking at events that people have failed to reach gaining access to. There is the dilemma of being a smart, intelligent, active woman or girl who is pretty and attractive who becomes judged or harassed for what other people expect to see from them on the daily, even when they have no reason to be included. I also face the dilemma of being compared to parents who choose something over parenting. Let me not fail to mention people who cannot see that physical and psychological violence can equivocate as a start or response. There are people who would want me to feel harmed or people like me to feel harmed when a skilled mathematician is called for and someone with a vehicle is selected or considered when that has nothing to do with the task. Also, people who fail to understand a task or assignment and do not do their part and make it seem like a partner or collaborator has not done something because they work on their time and do their part of the assigned work or commitment. The aggravation of adults or people who do not understand consequence or will not feel impacted by them the way someone they are trying to force something on to someone else will. I have learned to thrive when people fight things like sobriety or proper consumption of something. I have learned to know that is often what resistance to me is and still cry about it if I want to. The stories people tell about others and even who they have become are often out of context. Being a good person, around people pretending to be a good person just to get something is irritating beyond belief. I'm like just have a soft touch, like me.
They miss the obvious marks, in the most vulnerable and tender of areas. The lack shows in the most obvious of areas. I should mention that anyone who thinks something is wrong with what "I" am doing at any given time that has been college educated, most likely never worked on their assignments or developed their final paper knowing all the information starting from the beginning of a semester should correlate into their final product. In addition, that people will be working on things for eternity. I will be the person that fights these errors at the level of not wanting this to go into the stats about the "American educational system" and failing students to be announced by the United Nations on that CNN channel all the kids who went through social studies fail to watch when they have electricity, which will end up being a reason other countries start a fight to get the electricity cut, scheduled and all the books shipped to the people who would like to use them and continue to end world poverty. #HenceTheBillboardNoOneUnderstands. This is radical. It is just soft. That is an adjective.
There are people who do things because they have read or heard about apologies or seen them in something scripted in the media. Many people do not realize there will be no time or room for them to apologize or that the consequence is still going to arrive. In a mediated culture many people are associating with an identity or situation they are not in and “coming at” those who are or abandoning their natural and earned positions in life. There is something obvious to people who grew up with technology about getting dressed up and going to a bar or waiting in line for a party. This is not the same as someone being invited or having VIP access to the “party of the year” and being dressed properly on that day in particular. There really is something worth noting about the distortion people have about what goes on behind closed doors or making what happens behind them the same for everyone. I remember the day I got told I had a sinus infection and aimed to clear it up without the prescription or drug. This is like trying to introduce people to their delusions they do not know they have because going about something the “drug free way” when you live in a household with others may cause you to show them all the life "errors" they are making without you being aware of the insult you accidentally send. It is also knowing I have to learn to live in a world where people have talked to much and cannot figure out how to undo half of what they have done and that they themselves cannot even understand.
I feel like by divine and spiritual appointment I was born to answer questions about "what, you sat through it", why belts and weapons are used, and what is “family” as in a mom, a dad, a sister, a brother in the first place when you are born into a world that is domesticated with walls and doors and ultimately the feeling of always being held hostage or potentially having been born into someone else’s hostage situation. I know for a fact there are people who would see me better if there were no windows, walls and cars driven by people older than me in their initial development. They would see me picking them up, bringing them food and being whatever is considered responsible. I also do not live like the racism I read about in elementary school is something all people are actively participating in. I am also a person who lives knowing that a man in a white hood in something called the Klan can be your teacher, grocer, mayor, abuser and you never realize this because you see them in the day with their face showing. Even as an adult who has grown and become a bigger human I develop my “four year old fist”, that muscle that would know to punch a “bad guy” in the face if it ever came to that and survive. It is also me realizing to tell people I love them and that I happened to do my homework about the Nicaraguan War on time which is why I may appear “absent” or disregarding of someone or something when I am actually stressed about if a missile or cannon is going to appear on a day that they just want to see me smile and give me a kiss. It is me knowing that my life is paced like “Ruby and Max” in a world where there is a such thing as a race car and race car driver. I can also see a world where people copy what comes from something they would never understand. Like being a “mom” from assault versus being one from excitement of reproduction and an overall environment of consent. There is also something about being born in a world where “Sunday” is a thing and a work week exists. So babies do not get sleep and strangers are normalized everywhere especially on payday. This makes it seem smarter to give someone your number in a department store and not realize you should have a relationship with someone you went to college with or work in the same field as. There are people cutting out their real life interactions for people who are ultimately robbing them or calling them out as if they do not know them and showing them who or what they should attend to. There is a thing that happens to people when you spend every day wearing shoes and normalizing this experience. I am the happy mom who knows to carry her son and take his shoes off in public because he doesn’t need them on. I think I have a side effect from reading the three little pigs that made me want to figure out how to “blow the brick house down” #whenthefunkhitsthefan. There is a lesson in learning to wipe your nose with a Kleenex one time and getting another one if you need to do it again. I have also learned to heal people who would hear things like “you shouldn’t need them in the first place” when their nose is running and there are ample resources to provide them with something that they need. I am the person who announces to you when you may have copied something with a requirement you have no knowledge of. There are some people who would never go to a night club unless they can take an hour long shower when they arrive home and conclude with a spa day to remove germs and bacteria. I am the person who knows to take the risk that someone took to get me information about death and dying in the first place. This is understanding schooling and courses.
I grow up in a world where there is a trash-man that comes once a week. This makes a behavior show up of collecting or holding on to trash in the first place and making someone else responsible for removing it from the premise. I also notice where people have copied a behavior and not developed it. There are people who fail to sneeze, even if snots come out in the middle of something formal because they are copying someone who has already had this experience and removed what is causing the experience from their body and the atmosphere. There are people holding "sickness" in their body until "after" something and also people who do not have the visual to realize that someone would be in need of something to wipe their nose with in the immediate moment. There are people who would help and do help, but cannot reach people who do not show signs of needing the help or support they would offer. This not only comes from copying and fear but also having been shamed and behaviors learned from others. I also know that when you are a person who is cleanly you can develop symptoms that impact your health and wellness from being around people whose bodies have adapted to bacteria, disease and germs and normalized the experience or know how to naturally clean themselves because they did not grow up with washcloths. They may also experience "their mothers lotion" as their own. I have learned to heal from the condition and symptoms of what has impacted my health and wellness because of particles that come from other people's lives that are hard to handle when you are sorting through what type of body wash scent you prefer. I will also say there are generations of people who do not understand that people are living, speaking or developing stolen identities. There are people developing habits and behaviors from advertisements that make them live as if a certain product is in their possession when it is not, or it makes them bring their attention to something other than what is being offered in the immediate moment and space to them. There are people who have set their life up or purchased products or made decisions as if they are someone's love interest. This may be due to something they saw on television and film or even copied from witnessing someone else and not understanding what to contribute their behavior to. There is also something worth noting in regards to allowing, supporting or not saying something about allowing an entire group or generation of people participate in an experience that has a requirement that they do not reach to the point they aim to build over and over with no regard or reward because they entered without even having the knowledge that this resource has a price, even if someone covered it for you. There is an issue in my life where people will make comments about my writing, my growth, my doing and speak in regards to their "grade levels". So after someone has completely reached a goal and put everything together their are people who will minimize or call something incorrect because rather than thinking in terms of correct or perfect they step up as if they are being elevated to another "grade" even when this framework no longer exist. There is also something worth noting about being a girl and woman a society who has accomplished things that the strongest of "men" would compete for and go against you at. In a world of words and education some put descriptions such as "strong little girl" where others only know instinct and fighting. I have come to know as a beneficiary of "feminism" that sometimes my insight or my access preludes with the understanding that a fight or war is what was in process before my female state of entry. There are some who have had to learn to depersonalize and realize that anyone with this acknowledgement, title, accolade, visibility, item or attention would be challenged, fought at or even sent to the grave so to speak. It is with this knowledge that I know that every success I have experienced has come with people and obstacles that intended to defeat, break or deny me rights and access. I have enjoyed cupcakes and frosting before knowledge of a stove. It is not of my own interpretation to be rewarded by people who are happy to see when I turn one on to bake my own and reach levels of perfection some are still working on. I have also learned to take it as a compliment when people challenge me in my life and personal space the way they would have a debate against a author's text they have read or pretended to read in a classroom, workshop or learning environment. There are people who have strained to reach me to tell me something about my "log cabin" or "apple tree" while I am celebrating what has been signed to "free them" so to speak. I teach in a way that creates, designs and implements much needed updates. Business owners have to learn the skill of who or what is really security even if they are standing close to your space or face. There are people who will lose out on opportunity because they have normalized shared classroom space and boys and girls sitting together so they put a "boyfriend" where their uncle should be. They also may never get to their rightful place because of what they cannot see or understand is a need in the moment. There are people telling their secrets in public or sharing the intimate details of what they have been able to share with others because of what they have seen behind closed doors and home alarm systems on a screen. This makes it hard for people to stay or reach proper contact because people will or have inserted their opinions like television viewers at someone else's home in real time. There is a weird thing that happens when someone cannot see they have been invited into something private and then seeks validation to condemn the obvious to the point that some people argue that all the puzzle pieces are in the right place as if something is off. In a world where men and women have come into the same spaces and with the same access to certain things I and many other women have "mastered" the task, the assignment, the development to the point that some may not realize that the failure they experience or present is extreme and what they are fighting against is essentially at the skill set and level of what would scare an entire demographic of people to the point of immediate surrender, even when that would not be the persons intent, however what would be called for in that situation. I'm "all like, hello businessman or educated person who is in full authority and never had toilet tissue" and yes I am qualified to do this even if you fail to see this because you cannot identify how this occurs when their is tissue. I stress this scenario in my life when people want to think that I think I am "better" than someone when they fail to realize that someone else has given me a crown. I am pained when people do not see that "I am not speaking to them" and if they have ever seen an action film, slapped is actually the standard answer for what would happen next if they have attempted to interrupt a conversation that they have no clue has reached a particular level. To put things metaphorically, it really is like living in the year that a woman goes to vote and her husband or family laughs or goes to stop her and she does not know why and they fight at her only to turn on the television and see Barack Obama as a new president and realize that they had not heard, believed or listened to the changes in law that occurred in 1920. I am the person running around getting the opinions of those people, slipping them things to help and encouraging them to be correct even when masses of people around them are not. I advocate for children who have been exposed and appointed in error. Especially ones that have developed from people in their "homes" growing up watching television and participating or creating discussion as if they are a speaking man, a writing man, a voting man in society when they are not. This may cause people to step out of bounds or take on an identity under someone who has not ever reached or had access to any of what they discuss or the "show they put on" from misusing funds. I am also often disregarded when I do not have this behavior, support it or allow it to cause me not to purchase items like someone who has been awarded titles and awards with and without words. This is adjustment.
There are people who have not realized when they have followed the pattern for behaviors of child soldiers and military people or those who have practiced fighting their way out of those agreements that they had not known that they made. There are people who make complaints that make no sense. No, I will not understand if you participated in twelve years of a school system and at the level of close to or perfect attendance that you do not know what war is or slavery is and that it involves killing and that people celebrate wins and document defeats. I will also not understand arguments about not knowing about or that something is slavery, championship or knowledge of circumcision when this has been clearly defined and outlined within a twelve year cycle. I have lived through arguments about "where babies come from" or "where milk" should come from for a newborn with people who should have thorough knowledge of this. I also have learned and had real life exposure to how hard it is to have a child and raise one without the interruptions of those who do not know what is going on and should and fail to do so. Imagine being proud of oneself for knowing that bodies go into "heat" and someone would want to stop these things, control them or cut off their biological instinct from what they have deemed as normal even when someone experiencing it does not think it is. There are people who should realize that there are moms being attacked as kidnappers and pedophiles or zombies having creatures come out of their private areas after a person has already been exposed to this in a school system. I am smart enough to know I would prefer to give childbirth in the middle of the floor or ground of the location I go into labor but make sure I end up in a hospital in the society I live in and navigate. I am interested in fertility and womanhood where there are "men" who fight against women for developing whatever are "breast". I will say in a mediated culture there are people who have gained access to spaces and I will sound like "go ahead and risk sounding sexist" by stating women and girls specifically who do not see that contribution to society might mean reading multiple text and providing an A+ reflection to your significant other, brother, father or male influence, role model or community member can be problematic. It is me knowing how to identify myself in princess characters whose stories made it to film to share the experience of many if not all in different variation and understand the cartoon version might not directly showcase the violence that would be obvious to some viewers. I live in a world where I a joke about me being the "little mermaid" is politically correct to identify who I would be had I ever been onboard a "slave-ship" or sinking boat #backstroke. It is also knowing that things are situational and intersectional and that is laugh worthy to state that "my name ring bells" and know that I can identify with the princess Bell while telling a funny joke about how I am to busy being "Dorthy" on my free time which might make it hard to notice. There is something special about all the things I can experience and enjoy. There are people who would send apologies to people who ended up in the grave or somewhere else because of someone's blind spot. It is also me knowing not to deny that I have to grow and make changes that showcase who or what I am in full because of the way I and others cut myself off like the change of a "period" in the school day. I am also proud to know that when people argue about appearance, my timing and my ugly day is that of a person who did not abandon people they are responsible for. I live like a "big sister" who would go outside and fight "debo" for her brothers (and uncles). I teach people in a way that shows them exactly who I am and what I am doing, often. I get better at showing why what is "okay for me" is always going to be a "no" for people I teach, mentor or appear before. I am the person who shows you that I am running through the jungle and "this is dirt that should not appear on you." Just take the glitter I throw on you in passing and know if I don't come back I would expect you to tell the stories and lessons like it's billion dollar Tuesday. Those are the lessons some people miss, fail to receive or fail to meet in the middle of a mediated culture that causes you to seek counsel or adoration for someone else's "begged" for five dollar t-shirt when someone in your immediate area has ice cream and sprinkles for you and a fur that you wear when it is time for "YOU" to go out of the house.
My goal in life is to really show appreciation to people who amazed me by noticing pure white in the middle of slightly off white and appearing to do the same thing, respond the same way, love unconditionally and be able to provide on sight what is required or what is to be gifted. Some people would want to say it seems like I take a backseat when I am simply like a librarian who is the only one that actually has everything in the Dewey Decimal System and card catalog in place. Acknowledgement of those things that are actually defined as profound showcase that a person has went to seek for the information that they need and should be applauded for that and also given a pat on the back for being able to showcase that the others have much work to complete and many things out of place. There are no tears from a woman or girl who has showed in several layers that she would have adorned you properly and witnessed you choose those who have belittled you and in public in more ways than one. I and those like me have no qualms about what we have been through nor do we put the praise in the wrong direction for who or what still has us in lip gloss. I laughed today aiming to talk to someone about something and in the middle of the interaction I remembered how I used to speak to my "teachers" in pre-school with words and finish assignments and help with others. I am four often speaking to people who have yet to experience this even in their employment. I have learned to put on more lip gloss, write and have a drink more often. I feel that writing and telling these stories are as important as the one someone wrote about Phillis Wheatley and shared with me. I am also aware that there are people who walk up and down steps in a household and then proceed to do this in public and speak at levels that are out of bounds. Had their environment not had stairs they would realize they barely speak, have access to a particular conversation nor would they share their incorrect doctrine and philosophy with the absolutely correct person in their view. Many people share information out of place and incorrectly because of putting their physical body in a location that seems correct when it is systematically and psychologically incorrect. Many hardly notice. If the home they grew up in only had one level they would hardly navigate certain spaces or even attempt to speak at a particular time. There is also something very concerning about "men" who do this behavior "at" women who have excelled in a space that they clearly are being given access to by something that you are surrendering to or is still not giving you access. Who or what would you expect to show up and what do you think will occur outside of one exact action in the immediate moment. There is also something to be said about people who go through twelve years of schooling and fail to read and are heartbroken when they have to be taught that they are somewhat of a thief. Especially if they came for food, to show off clothing or figure out how to get money to get something. There are generations of people who have to realize and understand when the five year old they sent to kindergarten is still looking at them in the form of a grown man who should have education and some skill but do not other than knowing the pattern of behavior and what is appropriate so to speak. They sit just like they would have at the tender age of five and people cannot see when they are arguing quietly because they would like some "silly puddy" or something Thomas the Engine in the exact form for a reward or gift. I often make real statements in the form of a metaphor about people who have pretended to not like "Barney" any more when I am bragging about still watching it and they secretly still do. Then when I make the appropriate shift due to development they argue, dismiss, tattle or feel something is inappropriate when it is exactly what they are showcasing or pretending to do and cannot handle in the "real sense" especially from the person who would never hide still watching things like "Barney" or be afraid to share these sentiments in writing even if someone else thinks it is silly. These things occur when it is actually time to celebrate something which can include strippers and drinks in the most appropriate, classy and conservative of manners. I am as loud about "if it is time to go to the strip club and figure out how to get me on a date with this man" as I am about when I am still watching things like "Barney". I also know what it means to take a risk in a world with access to comedy to see if something can be as funny as I would like it to be through written words. In a world where technology has always been around to many it is hard to not live in a way that makes room to "ask for someone's number" which is probably something they do not have or would not know how to use in that context. Someone who takes the time to read this really might need to take some time to go and buy someone in their life a bottle of wine this person might be your boss, friend or even your grandma. There are people who have had a hard life and provided for people more than they may think or believe especially in a mediated culture. I had a lesson from my mom as a person who likes to sing and perform about something I cannot see about the culture I am growing up in. If I choose to start singing and dancing around the house, she removed the walls. Would I do this if I was standing outside, nope. I cannot see that in certain scenarios that is what is going on and what it would be the equivalent of, especially while she has to pretend that she does not know I am doing this because I am copying a music video. I love knowing that I will not have that side effect and having the ability to laugh through teaching about this lesson in particular. It is also important to stay skilled in knowing that I really want somewhere to actualize my performance to "Gangsta Party" and to do so strategically so it never "just comes out of nowhere".
I would actually like to fix this symptom from developing in people who are seeking to participate in politics in the wrong area or acting as if they have voted or participated when they have not done so. This is an important behavior to address. There are also people who watch television, film and music videos and cannot see when a lived experience that they have watched is, does or is actually occurring. Something about an entire story being shown in two hours might make someone not see that the plot is a formation of centuries, decades and ultimately years of someone's personal life history and development. It is that blind spot when people ask "well what is happening now" as if everything is not happening in conjunction. It is knowing and understanding the attitude coming from the ability to say "no I do not" being taken away from you. I am also serious when it is knowing why people will shut things down before they even start or have a chance to happen. Pardon me while I do cute things like see if a blog post can come across as a strip tease or a "poll dance". Yes, that is not a spelling error. This is knowing that parts of your life are out of order because some people cannot see why eleven o'clock is eleven o'clock for a reason. I would also encourage people who form peer groups and friend groups in the middle of access to education to realize that the "seating arrangement" might not allow you to see when a "really good friend of yours" is being competitive in the same moment with you for something that is already yours, you have earned, or has been designed for you. They may treat everything like a chance to get the highest grade, acknowledgement from a "teacher" or give a speech at the end of the year. Many people would never know that people are "walking" with them into a "billion dollar competition" they would not even know they are in or qualified for so to speak. This person is often the one you would give the most to, and has developed your identity from being around you but fails to give you your proper seat. They will most likely fail without you or realize how much you have given them and how much more they would have been able to receive. They may also feel like they have defeated you because you are in the middle of understanding what they are battling you for and especially in the space where you have already allowed them to "be" when you know they are not "smart" or whatever word matches your particular scenario. I am the person who knows that JoJo has a version of the song "Weak" and do not care what people think when I listen to it. It is also funny to me when people cannot see that their are boundaries and barriers that are well thought out and work even when someone cannot see them. There really is a group of people who cannot see that relationships we would have formed may be in the phase of crumbling because of something they have done. I will say this loudly to help others that if there is a group formation that appears to people who know that no one should even know each others names, it will be apparent when the person or people who have followed the paradigm are being addressed about relationships that "do not" exist to them or should not. As in how would someone like me be a "hoe" because a girl at a party she should not be at wakes up and keeps trying to speak to a guy who is really good at keeping a game face so "no one knows he was there" so to speak. I am the "girlfriend" and who or whatever it is does not even actually make it into the group of people "we" exist in to every even have a conversation. I should mention that I have no fear or plan to stop if a fight was to break out because someone has a weapon. I would not put myself or others in harm or go towards that direction but I would not cut off a conversation or interaction that can actually be positive because of seeing a weapon. This makes breakdowns in relationships of organized group formations by others hard because I would take the group all the way to a "peace treaty" with sustainable ways to implement and amend whatever it is that has caused the situation and be able to identify the alternative at every level.
I am more than what others define me as, mistake me as, create situations that cause me to navigate life like an obstacle course as. The days where your peers smoke weed and you joke with them like "puff, puff pass". Those moments when every one of your life exams that you are about to ace are interrupted with a funeral. The desire to be vegan but there is meat in the collard green juice. I am the person who knows that voting is the one thing to do or some type of civic engagement for healthy participation in society, even if you aren't excited about it. I am excited about community, development and creating better opportunities for myself and others. I have witnessed war with my own eyes and there are people who pretend to or misconstrue situations that they also have seen. There is nothing worse than seeing people, especially young people living as if certain things have occurred in their immediate life when they have not. I once decided to see if I would be able to free kids from a group home like environment or something, I'm the dummy who knows to not be shocked if I get chased down the street because of it (insert pizza joke here). It is still me being silly in the totality. It is having seen Jurassic Park, Armageddon and movies with Leonardo DiCaprio. I have begun to understand that some people do not realize when the opinions or comments they have about my behavior come from inclusion. No, I would never realize people who would attempt to rob me of my lifestyle because they cannot count in terms of resources, access, invites, symbolism of material goods or understand a debit card transaction and bank account. I have to remind myself to wear Pink lipstick, because in order to successfully take something away from me you would have to be able to take it directly off of me. People get savvy, so I know to stay sassy. My writings are not for people whose vocabulary only consist of "mmhmm", yes and no. My way of thinking is most likely not for people who dismiss sociology, philanthropy, community and active study that derives pursuit of something in particular. It is imperative to realize in a society where women and girls are becoming educated that they will be fought and attacked at for not behaving in a masculine manner. I have learned that men and boys will dismiss positive sentiments because they have normalized rejection and emasculation. In today's society especially if you are working in a particular field knowing who people like Chimamanda are, acknowledging this blog and expectations of millennial with access to cyber knowledge, comprehending that there is no problem with making comments in academic spaces that include Beyonce and being affirmative in the fact that all this may seem abnormal if you are just gaining access to a space. There are mediated generations of people who will allow someone who copies off television or film to take up to much space where they have no skill or purpose. They may then miss out on those who do have purpose and are providing it as they should. It is like women and girls who dress up like the day that the winner of a pageant is exposed and do not realize that along the journey this person may have been fighting against alopecia and if they had a video camera would have documented it. There are also people seeking approval and validation from something they have learned to be, "in charge", and fail to seek to simply have the correct answer and implement. I have been through sex education, even without having had sex which can make me seem like a person who is bringing something up when I am not. There are people living with STD's who have never heard of them and so when I speak about the topic in advance there becomes an opinion about me that may be very incorrect. I once had an interaction that I will discuss in a later blog post about an experience where I was biologically pursued by a guy who did not understand circumcision and he was not, however, he was forcing his biological body into the space and behavior of people whose health would be declining or symptoms that would show up due to having had the procedure. There is a grief that will come from interacting with people who do not realize that Jesus and Martin Luther King Jr. have been to jail, even though they have done remarkable things or because someone fought against them. I think more people would ride the bus if they realized that Rosa Parks was fought at and jailed for wanting to participate in society. It is like having access to a mango in every spot you would end up starving, but never do. Some behaviors or consequences that are already in place are as identifiable as knowing something is gold. Here is the thing, before a person learned the color gold they would not know what it is even if they could see it. There are people who would want to fight me out of my "knowing". As in birth order is vital. I have family members who know for a fact there are siblings and cousins who did not understand or learned later in life who was in charge and being responsible for them. I know to still have my resources and provide them to where they go to. If you are born after someone who has already been established as a "spoiled brat" you may fail to see that you cannot come back to family members you identify with that have already placed this person in high esteem. Worse is when someone is assigned at the basic level and can reach in a cabinet for you and you continue to reach out to someone whose arms have been cut off. I laugh at people who make comments about what I have earned because I do not spend them in the wrong direction. I also am aware that if you "fall in a ditch" the consequence will be bumps and bruises as people pull you out and the people that get left in the ditch may laugh as you are being pulled out and then feel sadness when they realize no one will be coming back to retrieve them (sarcasm). I am the person who would invent something like soap, I just happen to be in a society where this has been developed. Many people cannot see when they behave like people who would stay dirty and develop disease and are simply in someone else's formation of cleanly. These people often fight at people who would actually create these things themselves if they were not available. Fortunately for me I do not grow up in a world where "blacks" and "women" cannot vote. I am not cut off from knowing that it is okay to travel, rent rooms and contribute to society and people. That is what essentially is going on.
I also do not have a "homeowners syndrome" or adverse effect from car rides. My identity is established where I am. Imagine being in a car with people as passengers and then forming a bond or relationship at a destination that isn't derived from transport. Growing up with school buses and things of that nature allow me to not personalize who is in travel at the same time. I have never created that attachment. I also have knowledge of social emotional development and I can see from my learning and what has been available to me via printed material and visuals what it means to carry things forward and be in action. I will always be grateful for people who have made "obstacle courses" to help people who argue with children about why they came out of their womb. There is also something problematic about people who cannot see that they are going through something side by side or the same situation. Especially what they attempt to do when they see what they have declined. There is no way to recover when you are in the area where people should know they are in a global and international society. This is similar to people who should have learned about reproduction and get all off the access and people have to witness children growing properly in society and getting cut off where a person "lied", "failed" or participated improperly. In a world where diversity may be new and equality may be fought against, however people repeat things for money. You may notice people "come at you" for smiling and waving and not excluding people. Vital to understanding society's where technological fluency is a thing is realizing when people are targeted because of a goal someone set from watching a television. They fail to see in person that they go straight to the identifiable person or miss them completely looking at someone with the cool shoes. This is a problem and a compliment. I have people come into contact with me or make interactions with me and aim to discuss me. When people go to address the situation they often find the first point of contact is me not knowing the person and them doing something stalker like, and then feeling shocked or scared if they see me in person and they are making chaos that is not true. There are also people who carry their skills, developments and titles into the wrong area. They also are often not the best but may be the only one in their area or be impacted by stories of discrimination that make them promote in a particular way. I have been awarded, flown to conferences, published and more. Some people wonder why this does not "show up" in certain areas, it is them questioning why I do not overstep my boundaries. Also knowing that because I am one of the best at something, does not mean that I overlook the person who is in charge of something or has a superior title when they speak or give directions. My life is like having all the correct data on a spreadsheet that you submit before the end of the workday and not knowing that there are people who have mentioned errors that do not actually exist and being harassed as if they do. No, I will not be hurt by people who attack something I am doing because they have normalized abuse. If I bring you a meal where someone has set you aside to starve you and you are unaware of this, the person who has the scores of MY CMT's doesn't expect to see me until my eye ball has fallen out of the socket. There are different expectations for different people. Will I sound ridiculous for having come to realize that some people have been taught that the person that they will see in their reflection is dirty or mentally ill and they should attack them violently? I know not to reach out to give hugs to people who existed before me who learned something and completely performed the task and will consistently aim to make you feel the same way or see the reality as they see it. There are people I can tell I have a particular interest and the same way people who show up to a march together or at an office together may not fully know each other there is a clear continuation that should occur. I cannot help if something about church services, school days and cell phones make people think that they would hear about what I am selected for and the type of information I am expected to share, until it occurs. I would not, until later in life be able to know that children I would be raising have been so impacted by a particular occurrence that the normalize what is unhealthy and problematic. In an international society where skills are identified as they should be, yes people may place a veil or filter and let people think what they want about a person. If a person can see a person who bears fruits and notices other people wanting to rid themselves of it, there will be no pain felt by the person while their fruits are being used, even if by those who have tricked others out of it. I would laugh if the people who provide me with my resources told me stories of who or what put me out, which is why they do not know the consequences of not voting when you can read. There are teachers and medical doctors wondering why community members and elders are not being healed in their homes and families. I would know how to prevent most if not all diseases or stop them in action. I am sure the person who lived to talk about self-defense would want people to have more context about why they keep seeing a person who has learned alternative ways to address what they cannot see as problematic. There are people who have really been defeated who attempt things in their defeat because of a movie scene they are aiming to act out. How silly would someone look staring me in my face and articulating that I would not let them rob me or someone else or that I know to block them from attempts to be an abuser? I also live in the part of society that can teach women and girls about the measures people have gone to, to reduce violent experiences that come from biological responses. I corrected my classmates math papers in 6th grade and realized to this day it is that hard for some people to realize that whatever they are aiming to include or exclude me from is because they cannot see that I am already at the highest level of performance. Where they think there would be tears, like something they saw acted out on television, there would be laughter from whoever would be me and the teacher in all metaphorical equivalents. There is something irate about the way people compete in today's society. They compete at the person or with no particular skill. Sometimes they also know what the criteria for winning is and copy someone else's content, if that makes sense. If you ask me why I have won or been selected for things I would say "I do not know". However, you would question me about this while I am on my way to orchestrate my grant funded program or board the school bus that was provided for a volunteer program at a local elementary school I started and was funded for in college. That is my life choice, that is where you will find me, that is what you will see me doing. I do the "weird thing" when I am discovering what is up with chemicals and bacteria and what they cause. I also ignore people who are using terms like "they" when I know where and when I am not included. If you are interested in having a resource you see me using, after having "othered me", it would be problematic to expose yourself for not understanding what that means. I know I am not responsible for errors that come from people who do not know what a university, a church, a family, a grocery store and all the equivalents are for and attack when they see someone using them appropriately. I will never be the person to attract someone to a war zone with food. Many people will never realize why they have failed in "battle" or do not even know that is what is occurring when that is clearly what the space they are in is designed for. I am unapologetic about not having groggy people who then are too tired to create and put a protest where it does not belong. I also know who or what is designed to protect and fight for or against me. The ratio of price point is important. If you tell me that something is free when it is not, no I will not comprehend you. If you behave as if people have not hand written books by candle light, I will also not comprehend you. The scripted televised argument that people want to copy is causing chaos. Not swinging means developed comprehension and skill, fear or sensory perception is off. I wonder if people have realized how many times they took on the role of someone else's bill collector. In a world with newly found access and shared space I become pretty at the same time as someone that would never interact with me, I become better at a time when the person who does nothing is employable, I become smarter when girls typically do not learn, I become "ugly" in public on other people's important day, I become visible in a work space when you would typically only see my flawless presentation. I am actually happy about these things. It's like getting the right to vote and learning if you picked the right candidate or not. I teach the ability to share space with people who are awesome and the ability to know how to use it. There are people who should be able to walk in my house and take clothes and resources out my closet who have declined that appropriate relational development because of who or what they "think" are really there for them when they are not. As a person growing and learning about economics and financial literacy I have had to learn to not allow people back into that space after they have declined and literally have to make them what they would be if I was not a holistic community member which is recipients of me at my place of employment or provided information from me about their next steps. I have learned that there are people who cannot see they are sitting in the aftermath of things like the holocaust and slavery, often directly in it.
Growing up I would think everyone has learned about these things. Let me state this so it is understood, no, I cannot see behind closed doors nor do I run out of energy from not following the paradigm of a space or interaction. Also there is something to be said about people who do realize how annoying it is when "audiences" vocalize or critique someone when they cannot see that their favorite leaders, stars or celebrities have rented clothes or only wear them like a costume and have to put them back. In a mediated culture some people are pursuing a purse and end up taking on an entire career that could belong to someone else. I have learned in my time and with what is available in society to recognize the way some people seek to dismiss my wisdom, support and ability is literally like knocking over my legos and offer support to people that are in that space who can see me fix confusion with a simple correction and a head nod or handshake because the two parties have access to the resources they are going back to use. Some people cannot see when after that, nothing is wrong. If you exist where you should be able to articulate and categorize trauma there should be no response expected from some people other than for them to continue doing what they where doing. I have been called Albert Einstein at events I have participated in, I am not sure for what I was called this or when they described him as a genius but I can understand the overall point. What I do not do is the somehow normalized behavior of trying to shove it in people's faces or act as if other geniuses are not present around me and in different genres. No, I am not going to pay attention to jokes about hair or weave when I am inserting formulas that make sense in a technological age. The person I am addressed as is visible and exist as if I cannot read. I encourage you to explore this entire blog and read the biography if you have not. There is someone who thinks I cannot even speak English.
Self expression and identity is vital to success and progression in today's day and age. Style, choice and passion are all apart of the industry and basic requirements for active participation in most things. I love myself and some people aim to compete where I would be all smiles. As in your stomach gets chubby during that time of the month or when you gain weight from life transitions. I love my attitude adjustments. The ones that come from people who make comments about how I wear a belly shirt and then see me a month later with weight gain and do not realize that the next time I go out I will buy something I feel good in and that fits, even if that means another belly shirt. I have had to deal with the emotional trauma that comes from growing up in a mediated and consumer society, even when those who have existed before me still do not understand the impact. People who have seen commercials and shopping malls on a screen and attempt to retrieve items that are designed and earned by me and others like me (cannot forget that sentence in this lifetime). As a person who has developed in a world with access to education, entertainment, politics and religion that highlights and showcases amazing and inspiring people I am exciting to be able to understand when someone has included me in this realm. I am happy to know that people fall in love with me often and fall deeper in love the moment I open my two lips. Depth and breadth are vital. I am honoring a commitment to those who have appreciated what I have come to be and all the things I have to say. The best form of self expression is being you and the best identity to have is YOURS! #ForThoseWhoCanKissMyTwoLips.
There are people who would want to argue with me when I state that they make decisions as if they are surviving on a boat. I also know there are people who cannot see that they replace or remove relationships they would have with people because of technology and cell phones. Or they let an emotion make them cause chaos. If I told you I love you, that remains even if you accidentally override it with someone else's text message or you frequently run out of time and money for shopping trips because YOU created something random. I once had a one time verbal agreement with a person who will always be with me. It is the day this person realized all the mistakes made because they do to start with the correct answer, and the day that person had to crush me all the way into my "in zone" because of what I miss or what "mistakes I made" because I am already correct, finished, on to the next. I also get checked about the way I interpret "I don't have time right now" and have had to teach people that my health and wellness are impacted by them wanting me to wait for their habits and schedule it creates. I am very honest about the fact that if I had a particular number in a phone that is the only one I would call and often. There are people who do not realize people spend a lot of money on technology and phones to use it one time. There are also people who go one place in life who have made people feel bad about a scuff mark on their school sneakers after being at the playground and not knowing how to calculate that they also have church clothes and pajamas for bed. I often come into contact with people who make comments or gestures that are misunderstood by most who are engaging with them in a certain sector of society. I have come to believe that this is the person who missed the lesson on animal groupings and that humans are in the mammal category. I should introduce the rest of what I will be writing about by mentioning I am aware that there are typing "animals" and that articulation is simply putting into language something that has occurred. Emotional responses, reactions or next steps are not directly included in this context. Somethings are said about me and people wonder why there is no response, it is either extremely incorrect or extremely accurate. Here is the thing, if you point out that an apple tree is growing apples what exactly is the response you would be looking for, especially if the comment derives from believing only pears grow on tree's. In addition to this if people have watched and waited until the apple's on the tree spoil and point it out as an insult, they may not realize that the only thing that could receive this as an insult is the person who watched the apple spoil and then speaks about being hungry. This person may not realize that nature is rotting the fruit so that it will be eliminated due to being of no use and not effect other fruits growing or the tree's roots, bark, branches and leaves. Furthermore some have pointed out that there is a fence around a tree they may have "pissed" on. They fail to notice someone cares enough to build a fence and fail to be aware that these fluids exist in the ground and spread anyway. The fence is showing that someone is belligerent in the area. If you failed at knowing the animal, mammal, human categorization in the space that requires that understanding you will frequently think someone else is missing the point, when it might be you. No one with access to a apple tree on the premise will acknowledge an argument about someone having a dollar to purchase fruit at the store. I often build gifts for people who block themselves from receiving them because they are in the wrong frame of mind. Typically putting the calendar, date and time in the wrong location and context. I would actually encourage an activity for people to write, freestyle or speak out loud in the nude about their over all purpose or goal in life. Specifically what do they want to contribute to the world. I would then encourage them to reread this and get dressed. Now what should you do?
There is something interesting about being a person who can notice when someone does similar or the same work as you and not realize that they think they are the only person in the world who does this type of work. I laugh often about how I do youth and community work, public speaking, conferences and more and happened to also go to college. I live in a world where I have made $14 dollars an hour and can look at people who will not notice I can tell they have a low performance level or have less experience or a different job title. No, I am not saying money is everything but it is a clear indicator in certain sectors of society. I guess I should say something here about people who can read, knowing to read an entire title or statement. Yes, people get confused about why I am at a computer when they sit in their offices and fail to type, research and write proposals correctly. I am a fan of people like Joan of Arc. Stories about what I have been through do not hurt me or make me in the way some people would think. People have often lost and not been able to notice, which means I can hardly notice if you are behaving in a way that suggest otherwise when everything is properly outlined and documented. A church is a church, a building is a building. It isn't my fault if people treat a banking center like it is only an ATM. Yes, if you roll with me you have time to fix your frame of thinking. I am excellent in many things I do and I base the opinion on who or what is giving the directive I aim to follow. I exist in a world where great grandmothers didn't always have the language to explain how their children got here. I privilege the ability to articulate life experiences and understand words like marriage, family, emotion, domestic violence, rape, romance, poverty, hungry, healthy, sick, comprehension, disease, healing, medicine allow people to share, communicate and prevent and respond to each other and the world we all live in. There are people who never had the ability to speak, write or even think in a way that could explain what captivity is, feels like or how it occurs. Without words I have often been taught what buying a bedspread can mean if you cannot properly explain or do without it. As a person who has been able to grow in a consumer society where products are already made and available for purchase, healing not always the distance of migration, and examples of what intimate and sanitation mean I excite when I accidentally burn my sheets while ironing them so I will showcase impeccable skill if I ever get trapped in the house as someones wife. When it crumples into a white burn spot, I will laugh often and know anyone who thinks a new one should be purchased is still using their families towels and has never bought there own or any for the household they exist in. Let me not fail to mention here that I can tell overtime that there may be an argument about someone I may have had a relationship with at one point in time calling me a "hoe" prematurely about $21 or something that I never considered taking as mine when it is not. I am in the middle of my life's work and getting ready to buy my mom and step dad a bottle of wine and keep aiming to #mountaintop while someone thinks I will be crying. No, I could care less and in two point two seconds the situation would be addressed by something much scarier. There's a void as all my childhood appears before the eyes of someone who walked away with twenty-one dollars, no arguments and no peer group as they thought they would. I am a person who enjoys giving gifts.While people protest, forget to vote and argue about civil rights I notice that Hallmark has a mug that says "Big Daddy" on it and attribute this to societal advancement. I also am apart of a group of people who fly in airplanes. I have a magic trick of understanding people often miss out on the fact that the "Triple OG" they love to see may have had the same pair of Timberland's for years because of how often they are worn. I have owned Timberland's in Pink, Baby Blue, Burgundy, Tan, Black and more in my lifetime. As a mom who enjoys community work and participating in the part of society that is doing financial literacy I will never turn down IAM snow boots that are purchased and given to me and ask for or go buy UGGS. I am always shocked on the day I realize that I have been told about people around me who have been on drugs or in jails and begin to realize that they often do not know what occurred to them, even if they did something that has been labeled bad or criminal in society. I cannot control if people think there is only one way to get money and as I have grown up I have had more money than most people have seen. I will say that Lil' Kim posters and music videos make me think a lot of money is the amount people would roll around in. Coffee and journal money appear normal to me in more ways than one. Have you ever thought of the fact that using greetings like Hello and Good morning or knowing the proper protocol and routine for a location or event can make curse words and slaps disappear in the moment. It is imperative to know that this behavior, and acting accordingly can get you a raise or the career of your dreams. That in itself is a skill. Growing up I remember trips to the hair salon and having relaxers. As soon as I learned you could become addicted to things like that I took action in my life. I am the person who would want to know what is so funny about "creamy crack", but also like to establish the extreme difference between people using hair products and people who are addicted to them. I live knowing that George Washington had wooden dentures and a wig. I have no care or concern about what people think when I know to experiment with baking soda over chemical cleaners and want to experience all the results from even a one time exchange. I am happy to know that Tom's toothpaste and toe shoes are what people would want to complain about, and I have learned to just smile when people around me really just haven't mentioned to them that they have decided to commit to chemicals or addiction (let me mention here I cannot help that I have edits to make and delays caused because someone's dad or something is sweatin' me and I can be on trips but I prefer typing information and stories). Their insults do not make sense, are out of context or are just them going against a very firm decision. I choose to heal, be healthy and well and avoid chemicals over dosages or experiences that keep people around the bacteria or what needs or requires chemical cleaning. I have learned that deodorant and body wash have caused people to let certain people stay around or go around certain situations because it makes them able to handle the germ, virus or deadly person that is in the territory. If they stop using chemical deodorant or body wash for a certain period of time there are people who they would not even let near them or advocacy that would take place. Many people cannot see when I am often attacked or have to recover from people's behavior because pretty is what I am existing in the space as, even if I am smart. It is overwhelming when the "ruff necks" or fighters bum rush an area. Pulling myself together may look like me trying to gather my things to avoid them or show fear. If you have ever seen Miss Congeniality that is what me and others like me would appear as, if people would stop focusing on the stress from aiming to go to school or work daily. In my life I made an acknowledgement and complete transition when I realized what aiming to keep up in daily participation in something does to my life, health and strength. I focused on creating my own schedules and blocking passage ways that make people think that me not wearing make up, means I am not going to go to the make-up artist that goes along with me hosting an event. This total life change also put me in the complete center where it can be seen that who I am is when I wear fur, pink, heels, sequins, glitter and dresses. Yes, my journal has a diamond flower on it. I can feel in my spirit that people would want to argue because of the change I made. They would want to act like it is something new when it is not, it is just me knowing to not confuse who I am and what I like with the fact that other people have scheduled me places to be within my life. I am also noticing in this society if some people cannot see the response or overall occurrence in a film or television they do not realize they are being dismissed. They would have nothing but negative comments to say about their behavior and call themselves belligerent and want it removed. I am also not confused about what people will do for their personal gains and pleasure. There is a space in my life, even from people who love me or have grown to love me because of what they would abandon, rob, steal, kill and destroy for. People would want to point out or find that space in my behavior just to justify certain things they may have done. For a happy healthy life, a well mind and building strong communities I would fight against bacteria and diseases and all the things that cause them to take over people's lives, including mine.
Can I mention some people make these decisions in the wrong direction. It is like not realizing you can use the public library and giving up building a great relationship to purchase a laptop and not even having an overall life purpose or assignment for its particular use. I am not confused that wars have been started over "turmeric" and that doesn't mean dismiss or retreat. That means understand, live and thrive. Many people would want me to be hurt or feel bad about particular happenings. I have learned that displaced emotions can make a person unwell. However, if someone is interested in hygiene and sanitation the sentiments are not to be translated improperly. I also will just nod my head at people who do not understand what is occurring when they should. Many people keep showcasing bottles to people who breastfeed. There is nothing worse than people who cannot see that a bottle is the thing that would be out of place, even though it can be of use in the proper context. There is a such thing as self-defense and there is courage in knowing how to stay in the space where that is acknowledged. I know this and some people would want to point out that going against some people, even if they prove to be germs on their own, would mean going against the established entity that make them strong enough to be back up to a government official means that people will challenge me to see if I am a "germ" when particular things are not in the area, what they cannot see until after is the "goal" I have. This means even if I end up "homeless" you will still see me volunteering, applying to jobs and wanting to successfully impress "some man or something" that people may have an opinion of when I only have one reference but also an understanding of chronological timelines, life happenings and challenges that people have to overcome. I would always wonder why anyone would be offended by me mentioning that Lysol is important to use in the epidemic of sneaker wearing and bacteria. If there is data that can tell you that a sickness or disease can lay dormant in you for up to ten years, wanting to spray and clean things like sneakers would be vital to do and share in the NOW. I am the person who does not make my "classmate" my friend in the same breath. I can see when "we" exist and when others are in attendance and mistake themselves as apart of someone else's "we". I am also smiling thinking of how silly a person who went to karate might look to a person who wants to start trouble with them. They may misunderstand the "hiya" that you are sending into the atmosphere. There is a strategy where most others just swing or retreat. I am the person who would want to teach people about harassment, what it means and what it looks like in action even if it is something they have done. I would also teach them about the beautiful act of "seduction" or aiming to attract or be attractive to someone in a healthy way that showcases an understanding of boundaries and the ability not to delude if there is no interest shown in return. Personally, the knowing that the scent of Tiffany's perfume is appropriate for requirements regarding fragrance in particular realms, and that a french manicure can come with diamond accentuation and be appropriate.
More importantly it is knowing to not give up those moments to laugh with your "girls" or female role models by consistently pursing your lips, wearing lipstick and trying to get away with wearing a sheer gown in public. I do not control that I was brought up in a society that discusses safe space and brave space. I control how I use the knowledge I learn to blow kisses in the right direction. There is nothing shameful to me about my life experience. I have understood messages of people who want to call me out because of what they understand a fan does #coolyouoff. There are people who have never seen the moments of my life where I ride my bike past my father and his friend and sing the lyrics to songs performed by Ice Cube or the days I go for ice cream. There might be something about church clothes, saints and old ladies that sing and incomplete readings of religious text or learning of practice that make people cut out my next door neighbor who I interact with heavily, the dope boys who can still come in the house, that lady selling her you know what that still has the correct information, the person with the hot comb who was just making me "look cute" and all the people who cannot read who have celebrated and done more than well. There are people who look cute and dwell where words like mental illness, retardation, and illiterate are not present or do not matter in the situation. I will say in a mediated society some often wander looking for things they do not need, wouldn't want in their condition or wouldn't want to be around the people or task that it attracts. There are some people who do not conceptualize that they have never had an interaction to be taught about a therapist, a vacation or even buying a home outside of something they may have seen on television. They often comment on people like me who watch Cupcake Wars and bake in real life. I once had a speaking engagement and a winner from a cooking show I had seen on the Food Network was there and I almost died. I will hardly argue about what has occurred in my day or what I have accomplished in my life with people who have not identified that they have had no speaking role their entire life existence. My heart breaks sometimes for people who I know are developing strong identities from real life role models who get thrown off by people who saved up to get Nike's and a "fitted" hat. As in no, the people you wanted to build with will most likely not know how to host or plan a party even if they have adopted the style and behaviors of those who do. I grow up where people have made a word called "sexting" and people cannot understand when they have walked closely into your space and that a "no" might take them a while to understand. Much harder to understand is when I have something to do "Saturday" which is most often why people are still around or want to claim they have done something when the word they fail to use is "lost". The last person that "this" happened to wasn't able to be around to tell other people about it. This is understood by all the people who have things to do on "Saturday" also. Yes, glitter lip gloss and furthering my plan at world domination and romance with the man of my lifetime is a good reason "to make you say you love me", instead of showing up in orange. I have come to the conclusion that goal setting was designed by someone who wanted people to see they have something that they would really want to achieve or accomplish. In my world, my personal goals are getting closer to being reached every time I give up purchasing or putting out a life request for door knocker earrings and a Gucci bag. Every time I show up with the items and resources for the organization I am building there is a person getting closer and closer to providing donations and grants. People will notice when I have purchased beads, oil, shampoo and conditioner along with a story book for my own Braids & Beads Initiative to address issues of health and wellness, internalized oppression, lack of bonding and intimacy and other societal factors that contribute to low self-esteem, depression, economic oppression and more in young women and girls in their communities. That is my real life choice, commitment and investment. Yes, there is something phenomenal about purchasing a younger female cousin Justin Bieber perfume and understanding the value. I am not opposed to sharing about the life dilemma of purchasing Hollywood Royal by Juicy Couture at Macy's and then noticing the price of the one at Burlington Coat Factory because of joining your grandmother on her shopping trips. There is also a key component of knowing it is "still expensive" in all honesty. There is this thing when people want to argue about why am I being "cheaper" or see where I made a purchase and then they see a choice. They see the choice I make to purchase the gem and sequin fanny packs for people who will facilitate the curriculum that goes along with the program for my organization. So no, there will never be an argument about me going to get something for a cheaper price, there will be a conversation about the large amount of money that was spent as a friendly gesture. This is understood where commitment is a collective. Some people do not realize what it means to "suck it up" or "take a L" in the right context. I have had to learn to redirect myself when people have started problems with me and cannot see that the fact that they are "breathing" is what makes me the winner in this context. I am a person who knows that school administrators have trusted me with their car keys and faculty allowed me to eat snicker bars and soda from their personal refrigerators. I would not equivocate this relational experience with the fact that I can show up to the school building and eat breakfast. I am also annoyed by girls who fail to see they are irritating an overall experience and no one will vocalize this to them. As in girls who will not navigate their regular location unless they have hair weave, a certain thing on and more. These women and girls often start fights or pick trouble with the female who is being normal. If you have never had love, support and acknowledgement you may misunderstand the behaviors of those who do or wonder why they prance around when you have to be out working or dressed to make an exit. No, I am not saddened by people who do not bathe and cause trouble for people who are so spoiled and washed that they would not be able to survive any other way. I didn't grow up understanding that people "lick" each other to clean themselves and others. Lick to me is when you play with a puppy dog that is a house pet and cleaning is showers! It may be hard to detect when you have sensationalized a relationship and do not realize people you have chosen to adore would rob you for soap. Many who grow up going to school do not realize one day it will be over and they dismiss the real people in their lives and fail to see when they are treated accordingly.
I have won many awards in my life, I once was nominated for an award that there was a fee for. I received the nomination and understood what to do next. I rather say thank you for the acknowledgement and take the fee for the award and purchase items for my community work instead. I will have a permanent eye roll because being a well oiled bathed child and a person who brushes their teeth can give off the vibe of people who have been molested, assaulted or are sexually active. It is knowing to eye roll instead of question sometimes. There really are perpetrators looking for rapid shoulder movement in women to capitalize on, and they do this from a generation that did not have toothbrushes. Most people still do not. This sounds obvious to some and pointless to others. I have learned not to feel bad when people around me do not realize that they exist in a time frame in my life where if they dropped dead I would not know what it is and still go to the store to continue shopping for something with glitter on it. This also goes for not knowing why someone may be stumbling. There is something to be said about people who live and survive when people have made no space or access for them to do so. There are people who do not understand what television and access to chemicals in the air do and how they cause people to survive the harshest of environments. There are people whose hearts cry because people have lived to see the experience that they gave them with the ability to articulate and comprehend. They often end up walking by all the people who saved them that they neglected only to find out that the relationship they saw on television is the only reason they do not see that the person they look for is an abuser or person who feels abused by them. There are people's whose eyes will misconstrue lessons taught with words and actions.As a person who is high achieving academically since childhood I had to learn what "treason" or the opposition looks like and what it would mean to participate in certain things. In an intersectional society this becomes a big lesson to learn. I reflect on my mom's notes she would sign for me in high school that simply said I'm late (it does not matter if everything is in my handwriting except for the signature, unless there is a prize for this direction I followed). I also ask her for notes that state I live receiving thong underwear as gifts from her for my achievements and womanhood, and just for a regular day. Some people think they are equal to them in the way you would act as if a size 6 shoe is the same as a size 11. She would give me more than a side eye, if I ever felt like I could not be late and would wonder whose rule I have chosen. She would also send me with a bottle of wine and my signed thong note straight to #youknowwho #winkwink. Sometimes people miss the person who as told them they could lay and live free and witness the gifts they bring because of seeking to live on someone else's schedule and time. In a mediated culture it is hard for people to feel what message is being sent to them when they are a person who has been presented a feast and ends up living like a person who needs to steal bread. A person who has access to a feast might take a while to see that the person they called a friend or lover fought at them for taking the bread they really need. I will say that scripted reality, copying and television might make people see a horror story where there is major contribution to society and success. I know when to stop being "born" or "alive" and just sit and look and notice I am around because someone finds me attractive. There is no comprehension of "related" at the moment or any interest in non-violence or being nice. I am not responsible for having custom made dresses more than once as a child and a custom lifestyle in general, until I become aware and decide for myself.
There is also this aura about me that knows how funny it is that I can conceptualize that I would have to have a really good explanation for "all the big homies" about why I am aiming to "sneak a forty ounce across state borders" to this man even if he is a hobo suffering depression, probably because me and this item is missing! Then turn around and possibly have to explain to someone how I came up with the idea in the first place. Allow me to mention that I am apart of a generation that has "red cups" that teach how much alcohol consumption is appropriate. I would never not teach and deny people of their "moonshine" when the proper amount for fun and fancy has been discovered. It is also knowing that if your college peers choose to address "belly fat" they must not be aware of the "freshman fifteen" or have done enough work to experience those side effects. More importantly growing to understand that the comments they make mean they have been exposed to their own or someone else's belittlement or treatment. Have you ever seen a group of people exposed to "spanx" and not realize this is a product a person who experienced a gymnastics injury would use because of trauma experienced by their body. There really are generations of people who would never know why people would start an argument about body size or shape. #JustLoveYourself.
Some people are missing following rules that are essentially the same as being quiet in the library or owning a pencil and notebook. I can pick up in my spirit that I have a list of complaints from people who are saying that they cannot watch me and my real life movement like they watch television. There are people who will also often report that certain people are not responding or addressing problems they can solve when the answer is because they are not able to notice them the way someone who watches television and picks up on everything from someone else's life does. I really am not interested in hearing stories about having been stalked by people who cannot afford their own food. Where they could have been being treated amazingly, they start fights and notice who or what does not actually exist for them. Better yet, imagine people who have taken on the role of a heckler because they cannot see that is what it is, or what the consequence looks like unless it appears in their face like a scripted scene or live viewing. There are generations of people dealing with that one film someone saw and now everything has shifted. I am also aware of the "down low" and do not cry when men and boys compete with me because of where they would participate in that lifestyle. No it would not be visible that I or others like me are VIP while we are living in our normal day to day life and walking to the corner store and spending money at the same time that you are excited to receive your paycheck. I also will not fail to listen to what I know are grandmothers and great grandmothers and community leaders of women and men. There are people who will challenge my behavior because they do not realize they have been whipped, beaten up and dismissed. Even worse that they have sat in a desk for twelve years and not actively learned anything. Sometimes I have to learn that they really do not understand and if they could fix their body they would be more than happy to exit the scene. There is a woman of standard who told me to go to the club, I know to focus on that! Now notice if you have made an error in your life, the decisions you have made are still visible. There was recently a report on something called "Justice for Lori" who was a disable woman attacked in her home by a neighbor. It is imperative to witness how people can see and understand our movements and our abilities and set us up for attacks. I will say that this also may be the mistake of a "care giver" who stopped for a latte at the wrong time or a family member who is making a vacation because of a television commercial that fails to visit for a month or two.
Allow me to address where there may be a mistake of someone meeting a requirement where they do not, all of what you have done will be permanent in the area that access was provided to. The person, place or thing you may have sought to destroy or speak against may be standing in all their correct, fancy and amazing glory. You will notice that you have been ignored, incorrect,and failing consistently and are being labeled as you are. The same will be said for your success.
There will also be the implant of your thoughts and desires. Some which may not focus on building relationships and communities rather gaining something idol or doing something fun when a horrible situation is being dealt with. Notice when you no longer qualify for something because that is the very thing you have given up, a natural occurrence or one out of your control takes away and worse yet showcased that you cannot comprehend that sentiment. I should mention to people that I have learned to articulate a particular thing because of my Master's in Women's Studies. This being that there are women critiquing my behavior, my work and my style where I am in a space whether my work is good or not and there is no sexual activity. As in the "spelling errors" or something are spoken of out of context when an actual virgin or someone just developing a sexual experience is writing something professional and you cannot identify that you are in the space because of something sexual that has already been done or because that is what you will be used for. I can notice the difference even when another female may not because of the nature of my assignments, the task I am on and what they fail to see me investing in at the time. This makes actually meetings and debriefs seem out of place, misconstrued as sexual interaction and also a female may fight for that space because they feel that is what is going on and find out that they have a "long way to go' when they realize the work that has been done and from the heart. Women and men of all ages should help and support people if they notice they may be in a dialogue that they cannot handled, which is not meaning they cannot handle their job, but a person really may be causing to much conversation from watching television. They may need real help getting out of certain situations without even having to mutter a word. There is also the dilemma for authorities and officials of people who have "passed" in school but cannot identify that their is or has been slavery, holocaust and reproduction. Many can tell by the way they seek employment. There are people who often have to have mental health checks and hospitalizations because of this error after having been graded in a way that showcases they should have this knowledge. Apparently attractive is nasty and timelines without oppression is stupid. The opposition of "Abe and them" love it! More flyy girl things for me, I guess. Here is where I keep helping people keep aiming to associate me with people who I am with on "jean day" who then wear jeans when other things can be worn and speak to people they should not speak to. They are then directly coming against me on "jean day" when I do not wear jeans on any other day but that day and getting confused with the behavior and response and calling is problematic instead of the opposite. I keep wondering what the fight is for when I am actually being successful and no longer in "jeans" so to speak and doing what you do when you wear dress pants like I am supposed to. Some want moms and teachers and preachers and community members to not protect them which can mean have to fight at them. They are pointing out people who protect them and then fighting their way into the "line of fire". People who think that blogging and typing mean speaking to "no one" are people who did not read a complete book in twelve years of school otherwise their is no comment. There behavior has been reduced to what would be a baby goo goo gaga'ing in a crib for attention. There are people who have also aimed to fight their way into "Attractive from something they have seen in the media and are causing health problems because of their inability to clear up germs and bacteria alone that they come into contact with attempting to be "pretty" around people who have declined them. I have seen how a film or television shows "ends", which is why I may allow things to slightly interrupt or make people feel neglected accidentally. There are also people who have taken on the identity of a television character in their life so to speak and do not realize how the go to participate in real life interactions with the intention of making a complete shift or being the "oh so serious one" and noticing no one else is going to go along. They then realize they end up around the other "oh so serious people" and a fearful of backing out or start reporting on people who are essentially serious about responding to a fight someone started with their community. I have had to combat and cure myself of symptoms of when people who are supposed to "slam dunk" at something keep looking for their peers or want to give them that role or go to block the slam dunk of their teammate. As in #DoYouWantSomeoneElseGivingYourMountainTop. That is a joke I want my grandmother and aunts to enjoy. There also might be people who want to ask me a question about why I do not "skip" as in discriminate against people during a speed dating activity who may have opened themselves up to discrimination. I will go ahead and laugh knowing someone fell in love and basically chased me down and I am not ashamed to understand this or share but I understand it as private and frequently misunderstood. Someone is aiming to calculate and do deductive reasoning where I put instinct and spirit. I made an adjustment that removed something and who or whatever may have been involved will feel unsafe because I did something that would make them unable to access the area because what I experienced. They would of had to wait for me to come share the overall, there is no more room or space that I provide. As in there is no longer space for koolaid and people who can come in and out. I can decipher. Someone interjecting my shifting of the atmosphere is why there is no invite and proves the distortion that I corrected. #BangingOnTrashCans. They are appearing and having a chance to speak because of who buys me my blanket with a "Black mom and baby". Yes please step out of what is a neighbor argument starting with someone else's copy coding, underdevelopment and nonsense that makes the correct answer need an explanation outside of class time. No, I do not want to hear advice from people who do no believe in lynchings and when I can see who ailed to notice how close into the perimeter I am. Someone needs to feel let down and it is irritating me, not someone else. #ThoseProblemAreas. It is like making statements to a person about someone setting something on fire and she knows where they live so while everyone goes in the opposite direction she goes straight to the source. There is also an awareness that people make "out of bounds" a term when someone is not on a court. Or someone in a fight when they eating or reading. I can tell that someone needs me to say that many people are experiencing people finishing stories and half truths because of what they end up realizing and what infrastructures they notice in society. As in something that makes it not okay for a "nine year old to be married" and to a older person. Those are the distortions that people are aiming to monetize and then take what is a bucket at the well and turn it into a ship that they take across seas to get a water bottle. Someone cannot see my response and how they should stop aiming to be apart of a situation that will cause them emotional distress right before I become of "Queen of Zimbabwee" or something or make it fail or me to die for writing a better script or play. This coming from someone who, yes, can see this is when this is like the NFL championship in there life. I am learning that I have reached a level of phenomenal, that can be recorded that would make the most educated, sophisticated, amazing of people and men growl at me. I will be one to make a smart comment that says that this is because whatever challenge I make or 'better" I am is what is apart of helping reduce their blood pressure so they can have a greasy bite to eat again, instead of just having it reduced and learning to keep it this way. I do have to teach that some people really got fed when they should not have been and that is why they stay or a person the same way you fail to read a guideline before clicking a e-signature did not mention the intent or learn to stop calling out "their children's names" when all they want is the remote. Someone thinks I do not have "funds" or something so they fail at a challenge often and their reward gets intercepted. It is not that they can't say that it didn't appear. Many people without families homes that they can reside in or relationships experience things like Section 8 as home ownership or doing better than someone who does not have to live in that situation. I have interned at Housing Authorities. People's stereotypes about material items cause them to make grave mistakes. I often wonder why people would want to do interrogations in their lives with people they should bond and interact with. I also have lived to teach women and girls that while they are being catty and belittling, especially for the attention of men, they may not realize that they are being set-up and abandoned by people who want to torture them if they have a son and do a circumcision. There are attacks, behaviors and shifts being made by people who saw me not do this but do not want me to become exposed to what they set up for me in error and most other females. The major problem is what will occur when I see or notice what they have already done to the women who have done this and how much effort is going into the fix to adjust my response if I have to back track and provide the throughout explanation that I am able to. I will also notice that some who do this set-up and wait will not be prepared, well read or able to articulate the way they should be as success is outlined and identified. People are also fighting violently because they want to use the excuse of women who allow circumcision to happen to their sons for why they are on the down low and my non participation in this will expose people and also females who are making imaginary investments. Many want me to be having this same experience. I am following directions, like baking a cake, and know that expressing undying love for someone is okay to do and no, I am not forcing some word, label and finite description of the occurrence. I am able to identify when others will cause something to become unhealthy or when a symptom can be a premature response to me navigating through intentional set-ups for a crisis that I am not having anything to do with. I still really am not sure what hurts about a life that is going well and I have friends who pay for me to come stay with them forever. Those are implanted in my decisions in life. I will accidentally start to say very hurtful things because of people's false commentary about me and the fact that I am practicing something, but still in my real life environment. So my jokes will still be funny and my real ones even if I can understand the overall situation. Someone wants me to lie and blame. Like almost forcing. I can notice that my body language or distracted behavior can appear as lying. I am happy or excited but something, yes, about what I can see from a film makes me keep thinking in my head about something elsewhere that is attracting me to want to lay and get booty rubs or want to see who would be by a particular person and start a big riot. I have to be a little silly as to not disturb the "greats" who are on a "call to duty" or in their "prime" while I earn quarters to keep my message going. This is like when I was a child and had a size 4 sandal that I kept saying was too small and someone did not believe me only to take me shoe shopping and see that my foot had grown to a size seven. That is the irritation also. The disbelief, what it causes people to do and then the vibrations it sends into the universe or the damage or pain I would have experience had not their been a "ability", a "economic" and a "crazy lady who takes care of her daughter anyway" response. There is the interaction of gathering, but then the point blank contact of potentially "death threats" that no one can see that happens in rotation. When you understand hierarchy you just "Kanye shrug" at the ambivalence. I guess this is where I share about how no one can see what courses I take or how well I do in them and that I am not "stealing" gym time if I go with someone who I can see needs companionship and a fix that I can do quickly and privately. Many people's technological habit disturb the flow. The thing that is harming people is thinking that when I can identify has having made a comment at a Sut Jhally lecture that him and my professor are impressed by that they then are supposed to become nobodies in my life or like the librarian isn't a person. People want attention in an area that seems obvious they would not have any. They want to argue with my shoe collection or things I get that are like someone handing me a certificate that I earned. This makes it hard to be able to participate and contribute to spaces that people do this. They have a hard time putting THEIR fathers positioning where they put words of other people. They are failing to see my response. It is the one where everyone will come and address them, where they have dismissed even the person who drove them. They do not care what they will be saying they are cutting off education and knowledge and doing it right after something like me winning and I go to do something and I feel ambushed by a bunch of people who I am responding to more than they think and as serious as a person who would want to read the history of something. I would defend if I was an attorney there are people showing that whatever is sentencing is why most of this is occurring. Someone is saving people for "what reason" and then they are behaving that way with the people that should be doing something. It is obvious who, what and where needs to be quiet. Which is why there is argument about community involvement. I understand literately from pre-school. If you are attempting something I am assessing and responding in a way that experiences words correctly. I have language to put over the direct correspondence. You did xyz, I am creating me blog when you would want one. I know this is communicating and speaking and can reach worldwide. You think something is just a screen. The obvious. Where I am definite is where some people place their insecurities and own push back. I am not in fear, I am not saying no to someone I am doing something. No, if I look so "hot" or something I cannot see this or "cool" or that people feel like I am going to back out or something. My way of doing things looks "off" to people who do not know that it was illegal for "slaves", identified as blacks at a particular time, to read and that schools were intergrated and not "diverse" the way today's generation experiences. Had many not missed this particular lesson, they would not be asking for money for sneakers or clothing out of context. They also would not be mad when someone points out to them what everyone witnessing see's as the obvious. In the way I organize my program and work I do I encourage groups of ten participants and five facilitators. I know people who are exposed to this that ask "why" are a prime example as to why this structure is needed. There is someone or something being neglected when facilitators, teachers, mentors and well meaning adults are tending to the "cream" of the crop and the "crap of the crop" at the same time and miss a small life changing increment of time that causes certain things to go overlooked or unnoticed. Someone who is more than willing and ready to lead, support or make a change may be sitting "coloring" so to speak while the one or two mentors supporting a group of participants are dealing with a situation at large. This person could be readings, teaching and leading a lesson if a one time interaction causes one facilitator to focus on two participants in a group of ten and be able to give proper assessment and input that could be a one time, life changing experience. Many people like me are dealing with people who have made themselves a "main character" so to speak from watching sitcoms and films. This does not mean the same thing as being at the center of your life experience. It means when I am home watching "Wendy" someone is making me a character in their "scene" that they have developed as if they are a star and when someone like me is not expecting to ever communicate with said person again, I am somehow a love interest to a person that I am not communicating with. This does not mean I will disregard them, however they are scripting out of context and without the presence of the person to get even the script proper. I am a helpful person which is why I do not just push people off. There are also some working women who do not realize that they have male bodied employment and emasculate other men due to this and set females in the area, especially home up for abusive relationships with me who would not be able to meet the challenge that is being presented. I have an awareness of this that makes me know that being in a male dominated space that females take up causes me to still challenge people who want to interact with me in a way that they have to earn their way into the space and not take up the one that comes from a provider of mine being in male employment while female. This actually helps with male emasculation when females do this because a docile woman is appearing, however, not from their interaction. They may present themselves as someone who made a person sit quieter or participate when they the,selves have not and enter into a space that they are too weak to handle. You also may see that the person is a meaner than you think, even if they are proper and docile and full of excitement to cater to you as a natural trait or developed one. The problem for women and girls like me is when the females in the male employment do not realize to stop then coming home and designated something as a males job when they have already stepped into this. It makes the dialogue incorrect and weakens the infrastructure of something. As in you should not send a son you cannot see you have broken into a space that he will be hurt in because you fail to see you have broken him down worse than a male supervisor who would discriminate. And that he should be able to sleep more often because the female in the household is doing "mans work" already. Even worse is when they do this because of the money in a structure that was designed to do this work before the invention of coins. Some men and boys would actually email more often into their "bosses" or make proper calls because they cannot see and often neither can the employer understand why they do not come to give a greeting, ask questions, or enter into their space to communicate. This is most often because a working mom in a "male" job has already done something in the household that will make them never even get up or act like it is okay to go near a particular person or space when it is. Some "bosses" would even want to put a video camera up so employees can see that they are "not doing anything" so to speak or are carrying out one task without interacting with the overall workplace. They may not notice or realize where it is coming from. These men often become abusers to women who have not contributed to emasculation or money focused work by not knowing to bring a drink to their "superior" or plan a holiday party and use some of their paycheck. This is often why people are overlooked or jobs outsourced, in my opinion. There is also something to be said about people who experience jealously and then want to make statements that suggest that thinking you have to pee in a bathroom is mentally ill, to then validate them peeing on themselves in public and formal spaces. Not realizing that if the person can read and articulate this, that behavior would be proper if in a grassland or the inability to articulate the action, which then makes that person mentally ill. I have had an experience where someone keeps aiming to equalize themselves to me and it is causing me problems that appear in public and "freak" me out. I realize what exactly it is and then have to "crack up" as in laugh that people have to support and address me to help because it will happen in the immediate moment and where I actually do have a "life" and also enough resources and confidence to not be fearful of the experience and figuring out why this keeps being "forced" as an attribute. It becomes positive as a learning tool so that my brain develops the ability to live like a person who has developed and learned a skill that then implements and not a person who just knows to do something and does it. I then actually would not make sense in this context because Clorox wipes, that are not just a fancy spoiled brat not wanting cooties would make no sense to me. I would also fail at seeing to really get a face mask to block viruses and use while cleaning. It then becomes knowing that words in the form of language will make me think people to not snort and throw things in rage and anger that does not need to be managed or adjusted in that particular instance. Some people are also over exposed to people on television and film that behave like me and then insert themselves into my "life" as if this is not the real me or something. Many people are experiencing this. If they could see the overall interaction on television or film they would see that my helpfulness is why I even acknowledge them or do not aim to be harmful. I do think it is funny to show things that people make for me while they are all in love and potentially pretending not to be to people who I am close to even when people are unaware. There is something about television watching and film watching that cause people to create a false reality and identity about someone, like me, that makes them think it is inappropriate that I am working on my book series and ball gown collection that will be competitive with the porn industry and want everyone I have ever worked with to be there. This also includes figuring out how to make people who sing about zombies competitive with nudes while fully dressed in a bonnet. Yes, I can know tell that people have flipped through my reading material and changed their life from privately learning about female circumcision and telling "er'body and dey momma". It makes them no longer want to comment about something I am doing and realize that it is violent to attempt to comment or make changes over what I have already done. I do want to develop something for wives and women who may suffer from their men being exposed to other women via magazines and the internet to get their back, not by having to go do what "they" do the way they do it but making the statement, "I just finished reading a book on a Nazi concentration camp" sound just as sexy and attractive. I do understand that this means disrupting ways people make money and also get rid of people they want out of their space. The fact that I have been able to do this somewhat can irritate women who have made drastic changes, given up on who they are or cannot identify any longer that someone can be sexy or attractive and not be perverted or doing something actually sexual at the time you notice they have a beautiful smile and armpits to be simple. I live like a person who has learned lessons about what it means to have a "School day" which means that even though I can identify my "friend group", it is still bad to be a "scholar" and skip class and get an F+ and still be able to give a presentation. Things I have been able to experience and accomplish have caused me to dedicate my time to staying my my space and consistently performing at my level. This reduces symptoms of a cold or the confusion caused by me standing next to "thotty island" because I can notice that "waving your arms in the air to a plane" to rescue you because you are stranded on an island is silly when plane tickets cost money and the pilot most likely does not know how to land without all the structure that has been put in place at an airport. I also do hate knowing that using my older cousin's cinnamon, sugar and butter toast recipe can be thievery if someone gave me a resource to get up and buy frappe. That is why it is funny for people to keep trying to figure out how I afford to "sneak" girls gel pens to look cool at school or while standing outside of it. Many people also do not like how I meet their challenge to show people who I am or what I am doing when I am being "me", as in "forest green" because then I open up the space for them to, to go into their lived reality and share also. There will often be a lot of actual nothing and a person who needs to explain what they have been doing all these years while collecting a pay check. There is also something weird to me about people who cannot see that they are in a work place with a degree requirement and that they should be using the skills that come from their degree. Who would take time to show that someone is using their actual skills and always having something complete at the deadline. As in, no, I as a Women's Studies Master, Communication Major and Media Studies Minor should not be doing something like someone who is a "something else" that then never has anything complete. Yes, this is a constant. Something complete, appropriate and turned in when it is due with nothing to go back to redo, check or work on that should be done in that instant. Edits and corrections are acceptable some people are being incomplete. "She gets things done on time" is the comment and she doesn't live like people didn't spend centuries without clothes on or act as if nude isn't normal. Pardon me, while I continue to reach my goals of creating a textbook while everyone's irrelevant comments help me to do so and showcase that they fail to realize that a teacher's curriculum is not condensed with the amount of words of a textbook that they stared at and never read. I am not getting sat out of life, I should mention per usual that the high score I received on the essay for a Connecticut Mastery test was about drill team so, no, I will not understand when you suggest education or opportunity as a way to take away "me", and one that the people you are aiming to use as a co-signer are validating and loving on also. I will help those supporters by showing them that by aiming to take away the things relevant to me and my culture and their also in place of someone or something else is just like choosing to give yourself a disability and taking a wheelchair when you have two legs that work and a lot of access to public space. Yes, the response is well then why do you eat with a utensil. I told someone today about something funny that my Media Studies minor helps me pick up on. It is when someone has perfected the copy of what a person is actually doing or growing in and caused a disruption in leadership. There are people upset that I point this out in the natural social engagement and response, as to push for a major IGNORE to systematic ideals that will impact the actual behavior and journey. I laugh knowing that some people have missed what would lead them to politics because of this or that fights are started with people because they have done the "perfect" in a social justice or humanitarian movement over an actual participatory woman or girl but failed when it becomes realized that they would want this person's house, or man or lifestyle. The actual booty rubs that they would never give up or that come from there mere presence that would not disappear even if they where not contributing to society. As in they want the stuff or the lifestyle they have because someone is attracted to them and they fight hard in that area with women and girls who have yet to see their face or realize they have what they have because they are pretty and or liked. This is a declaration of sentiments.
I've learned to be my biggest investment and to define that for myself and by myself. I will decline being crushed into other people's fantasies for me and eaten alive. This will be noticed the moment I open my two lips. I am a girl who has lived through things, who has cried, who has been depressed, who has been happy, who has been taught, who has been corrected. I am human and more importantly I am me. I laugh, I live, I journey, I fail, I succeed and I proceed more often than not. I tell the "Timb man" things. I make reality my ancestors dreams and what not. I also know girls and women like me deserve what they deserve. Some people really are speaking past people, I am speaking to and with you, the reader. Point, blank, period.
You can slip
The first time
Get a good grip
Tight, the first time