There is a make believe that people exist in. As a person who has advised high school and college students along with integrate this into my youth work I know it is important to share my stories. I rarely discuss other people without purpose or positive intent. I also know it is a bad habit some people have of undermining a skill or strength. No one would know the power of a marinade if they have never cooked or healed somebody. I recently shared a story about my high school experience when my principal came running down the hall like Turbo Man doing something called the sweep. This experience was life changing. In addition the career counselor and a host of other's had a major influence on my life and college process. My experience with the sweep made me pay attention to application time. This made me not apply at random and take some time to apply in a way where I could understand that my ability might not correlate with what may be recorded somewhere. I chose to apply to two schools Southern Connecticut State University, which I attended a presentation for at school and also applied to Marymount. University because of interest in the location and what is available in the surrounding area. My application process basically said, "Aye yo I'm mad smart and it's a lot of stuff going on so I don't always pull everything through in this schedule the educational system has going on and whether or not I get in "I think your school is HOT #HollaAtMe." Unfortunately for me, this sentence didn't make it to the actual personal essay #sarcasm. If you tell my story, I would say that my "life" has been through a lot. Most people cannot see when because of previous exposure or screen time that they want a person to tell a story the way they see it on television. There might be drugs, prostitution, other people organizing the structure sickness, people making fun of people, injury, hairstyles, fights, shoot outs robberies, people abandoning their safety zone, but me I'm just eating curly fries or working on my curriculum. From my actual eye sight you would see I experience people around me failing, other people smoking a lot of weed, and a crazy person who is being just that. I'm also wearing pink and white Timberland which is why I ignore Air Jordan's. Whatever else someone would want me to see they would have to enter into the film of my life story and notice that I'll be just making oodles n noodles while they are doing the actual craziness. I also have money in my pocket and no serial killers, criminal rapist or actual psychos interrupting my actually daily plans. To me if a bad things has happened to me, it would be during the time when I am walking or at the corner store in my adolescent framework with money. Other than that, if you turn some televisions off there are just people who keep being the "main character" of something they are attempting to make go on. I'm sad knowing that the movie about my life would get canceled because I failed to meet the criteria for the successful hoe who slept her way to the top. I do not know why someone thinks that sex is apart of getting a letter of recommendation. I'm writing essays and poetry. I also cannot help that someone really has created things in my life to address the gem shaped butterfly I had on the back of a pair of jeans I purchased because they have had an experience with poop. In my life I survived the hardest parts of the hallways and the streets. Some access to screen writing is making people overlook reality. If I walk in and out of a store with another honey bun and make it into a house with a key at a time when people who fight at me wouldn't even go outside and stare in the eyeballs of the supposed to be scary dude with the pit bull on the corner. I mean mug like I did twenty years of jail. I smile thinking of a guy recently who bought a bag of chips for a girls group I work with. That is hard to accomplish. That is the annoying thing about me. Being what someone considers being attractive and then being spoken to only to find out that I'm going to work with some young women and no you can't have my number but yes you can donate to me here at She's A B.O.S.S. #RobbingYourLocalStoreClerkInHisFace, so I can bring some snacks to a girls group that I am currently working with and yes I will keep my Dunkin' Donuts Munchkin money for the day. This is my joke for the day, my heart song, my truth, The correct people are listening as usual. I guess some people stereotype college from the commercials or they think you should go their with a major focus on a job. There is something magical about perfecting education with no ulterior motives. I have experienced hurt. That doesn't mean things still will not be funny and no I will not admit that watching Sailor Moon and Powder Puff girls makes me move like a ninja and now to be annoying by using all the syrup. There is a part of my life where I wear suits and dresses. That's why it might be hard to see me trying to hold up my sign like "ummm yo my dude, you supposed to be in the other location so when I get ready I can walk by I can act like I do not see you and then use some seduction I learned from my friend, I guess this is when I learn that thing about people not being where they supposed to be and showing up for you.' I experienced my first let down in life when this dude I was trying to holla at showed up in the wrong location. If I didn't get everything together with my educational participation all I would have done is showed up to one of my teachers or a desktop and found out the correct way to spell inconspicuous. I learned a lesson early in my life. When some chic ask me if I see her, the answer will always be no. I'm out like Colombiana. I also know not to lie and act like I'm not interested in looking like a cloudburst in a particular situation. I'm also not ashamed that I do not act like someone who left the school system to choose getting a house and car or something because a television commercial does not mention that education will help you in purchasing, comprehending and sitting through the details in meetings for these items. It really is the people who didn't do well educationally but still went ahead with the death threat of an agreement for items that they cannot comprehend how to use, that make comments when the answer is a direct no. I will say it like usual, I'm not robbed because you took a school desk out and watched the teacher give me mine. You ever see someone who is getting in big trouble keep trying to figure out what you cannot see. I guess I cannot see that I am being dealt with like a person who was reported on or something while someone was doing the equivalent of a breaking and entering and is struggling to understand they are caught. If you saw it on film, I would look like what is called "blessed". I really do think it is television that has people calling in saying things like, "hello I would like to report the positive and safe behaviors I am witnessing from a person who is successful in education, talented, responsibility and participating in things by choice who happened to be around when I was attempting a rape, robbery or murder. Yea, she's still here. She keep doing something weird like watching kids like she was asked to before I had came to do the robbery. Yea, she keep taking care of them. She got a life or something. She never bugged out she just does self-defense and safety and I would like to report this. Yo and when someone knock on the door she just come and tell you somebody looking for you. I'm like can you just abandon people like everybody else". I'm like all that just happened is a bunch of people aware of all the cooks around me. They just wait and wait until I need a boyfriend or something. Yes, the person with the clean toes and removal of dead skin cells and participating in the prevention of this occurring, yea that's me. I'm like they out here listening to the dude who will teach you that "the gay people eat the doodoo and they put it in they mouth like this." Man this is the generation for magazine covers, publications, I mean i should be on world tour with book signings. But to be honest they got the "doodoo and they put it in they mouth like this" all in the forefront. I still have somethings to work on. I'm really just disappointed to this say that they dude I was trying to trhow my panties at seems to be in the wrong location.